Emotionless: Spock x Reader

A Harsh Reality

We were currently on red alert, so I locked down my lab and waited to see what would happen. After all, I had only just been allowed to return to duty a few weeks after our old earth incursion. I didn't want to give McCoy any reason to put me back on bed rest. I was going to go stir crazy otherwise. The last thing I did was make sure my shutters were closed.

Or that was the last thing I remembered doing before I woke up on the floor of my lab. The communications on my wall by bed as someone called down to my lab. "(Y/n), are you there? (Y/n) come in." Placing a hand to my head I got to my feet and stumbled to the button.

Pressing the button I spoke quietly. "Yes, sorry, I'm here. What's going on?"

Before I could process my own words McCoy spoke up. "I need you to come down to sick bay. It's an... urgent matter." With a quick reply I made my way to the requested location. When I walked in on the other hand I froze up. Spock was lying on one of the tables with rather low vitals. The Captain, Scotty, and McCoy all paused in their discussion to look at me. "(Y/n)?"

I barely gave them a glance. "Why is he on complete life support? Was he...?" I couldn't even finish my sentence, my mind already flashed back to my fathers and mothers deaths.

McCoy took my arms and led me to a chair, pushing me down into the seat. "He was a little worse than dead. (Y/n)... his brain is gone." I suddenly didn't feel well at all. My breathing caught in my throat and my muscles stiffened. My head felt light as the nausea started to set in.

With my hands around McCoy's arms I squeezed them tighter, I could hardly lift my head. "(Y/n), are you alright?" I could hardly hear Kirk's voice through my ringing ears. I didn't know what to think or how I was supposed to feel about this. Just that... I was utterly helpless and couldn't do anything.

I hardly managed to shake my head as my vision started to get darker. "Ms. Nevens get an O2 kit and some water please. Quickly, now." I heard her shoes rush off as McCoy held me up. Someone's hand started rubbing my back. The sound of someone screaming reached my ears. It sounded pained, panicked, terrified, and worst of all... alone.

What happened after that, I don't really recall, but when I woke... I felt numb. I felt like when I first woke up in that hospital after the incident. Sitting up the sheets fell from my shoulders, I was in my room. In all honesty I don't remember why I was in my room. I just know that any feelings I had before this moment were gone. Even the way I had felt about Spock... seemed almost as if a distant memory.

Spock... something seemed off when I thought about that. Why would that be? Standing from my bed I made my way to the communication system. Without thinking I called down to Sickbay. McCoy was the one to answer the com. "Doctor... can you come to my quarters? Something doesn't seem... right?"

I asked trying my best to sound like I wanted to, but my voice sounded... like it did before I had met Spock. Something was definitely wrong with me. "Yeah, I'll be right up." With a click of the button I went to take a seat at my desk and wait for Doctor McCoy. When the doors to my room opened I turned to see McCoy standing there. "Hey, how are you feeling? You look... better? Still a little pale, here let me see your wrist."

Placing my wrist in his outstretched hand, I spoke, just as calculated as before. "It feels like when I first woke in that hospital, McCoy. Just after my parents passed. Its like something bad happened, I just don't remember what it was." His eyes caught mine, before he began to speak once again.

Hesitantly at first, before just spelling it out for me. "I had two of the nurses bring you here. You didn't take the information about Spock well. You don't appear to be taking it well still given the manner of which you are speaking either. Telling you again doesn't seem like it would go well either, still you should know. Spock is dying, because someone took his brain. I'm currently working on keeping his body alive, while our Captain chases down his brain. Do you understand what I'm saying."