ℝ𝔸ℕ𝔻𝕐 & 𝕁𝔸ℂ𝕂𝕃𝕐ℕ 𝕆ℕ𝔼𝕊ℍ𝕆𝕋𝕊🏳️🌈

Memories (Randy)

Have you ever believed in love? I didn't, but life is unpredictable, as are changes.
I was born in a family where I lacked nothing, my parents and my brothers have always loved me, constantly and despite everything. They supported me in my passion for singing and music, and it is thanks to them that in life I was able to make my dreams come true, because without them, I'd have been a person with my own dreams locked away, When I was 19 I joined a band. Back then there were only two of us, then many other people came in and out, some stayed and some didn't. It was just when I was in the band that the meaning of "love" began to take shape in my life. I kept denying my feelings. Do you know why? Easy, because I was afraid. I was afraid of being myself, I was afraid of what people would say or think about me. I can't believe I worried about what someone, who I didn't even know, might think of me... I should have been ashamed of that, probably. But this is not the point. In that band I met the most sincere, kind, caring person, the most real person I've ever met. He was never afraid to show himself to the world, he had the courage to live his life, as it presented itself, right from the start.
But first I want to give you an idea of ​​who I was dealing with every day. My hands sank into his straight, dyed blonde hair, they were soft and my hands sank in just like cotton. His little, slightly pointed nose would turn all red when I rubbed it against mine, as you do with babies and they give you one of their most beautiful smiles in return, which he did too. His lips were pink, thin and soft too. Every time my lips touched his, a thousand emotions were unleashed inside me, even after years, this was the effect he caused me. But his eyes, his eyes are one of the main reasons why I completely fell in love with him. They weren't a simple blue, they were much more. They were like an ocean, you dived in them, you swam in them and you got lost in all his emotions, his feelings, you got lost in all the words he couldn't say with his voice. His eyes were an open book, and I spent my days reading them and, surprisingly, I just couldn't get enough. Compared to him, I was a little more than ten centimeters tall, for him being "short" was a problem, for me, on the other hand, it made him even more beautiful and sweet. Every time I hugged him he disappeared into my arms, sometimes, when he was embarrassed, he hid behind me, and again, he disappeared completely. Many times, when he wanted to give me a kiss, he had to get on his toes because he didn't get there, even if I, a little, had to get down anyway. The day I kissed him, it must have been a day like any other, but something clicked in me, even today I don't know what, but whatever it was, I'm immensely grateful to it. Finally my lips touched his. I remember they were warm, soft and slightly humid. The thing that surprised me the most was that he didn't come off, it seemed like it was something he wanted too. The kiss lasted about ten seconds, then we looked into each other's eyes, blue met brown and our smiles lit up the room. A few seconds later he said to me, "You don't know how long I've been waiting for this moment." Needless to say, we got engaged that day. I honestly didn't expect him to reciprocate, much less did I expect him to say those words.
That same day I realized that the confusion that lived in me was so great that I didn't see all the signals he was giving me, signals that should have made me understand. But no, the confusion had blinded me.
In seven years of engagement we have had countless experiences, good and bad, but one thing is certain, I don't regret even one. On January 24 of that same year, he gave me the best gift in the world, he asked me to marry him. The happiness in which I was immersed was so great that the words did not come out of my mouth, only the tears of joy that came out of my eyes, nothing else. We were so eager to put those beautiful rings on our fingers that we got married on the first day of spring. It was still a bit cold, but the sun shone high in the sky and warmed more than we thought, the first flowers began to grow in the meadows of the city and the birds made everyone hear their song. I felt like I was in a fairy tale. That day we promised to love each other, whatever life gave us, our love should not have ceased. Life has given us two beautiful children, Grace and Archie, and a beautiful cat, Blue. They've always been our happiness, all three of us, but then, when we thought it couldn't get any better, our beautiful baby, who was no longer a baby, brought his twins into our lives, then Grace had a baby girl, and so our life was full. We loved everyone as if they were a part of us, because maybe that's just what they were. Unfortunately, however, sooner or later everything ends. Andy died a week ago. After 62 years of marriage he left me, but he was still the handsome man I fell in love with. Our love has always been strong and lasting, but death looks no one in the face.
At the moment my heart is too weak from the loss and I don't know if I can hold out much longer. I don't want to leave my beautiful family, but my heart has always belonged to him, and now that he's gone, my heart is gone with him. It was nice, but as I said, everything starts and everything ends.

Not gonna lie, I cried writing this "letter" if we can call it like this, but anyway I hope you liked it🌵💞