Introvert Meets Extrovert | ForthBeam

MUTUAL FEELINGS

FORTH

It is almost 3 months. 2 and half month to be exact since Beam have cut our friendship or that is what I called it. I still like him, I'm still interested to him. I still feel the same to him, and I'm not mad at him for doing such thing. But I want reasons, I really want to know why he's suddenly avoiding me.

As everyday I see him online on his SNS, see his updates, I want to like his post or comment on it like what I do before, but I can't. I mean I can but, I feel like I should not. I want to send him a message everytime I saw him online but I can't, I always just end up staring on our old chats.

I always visit his SnS, getting updates about his life now through it, but he don't post a lot of his personal things on SnS.

Every night before I fall a sleep I was found myself staring at my phone wallpaper which is our picture together when we visit the Sea Aquarium, as that is the only day that we have a chance to have a picture together.

I really hope that someday I should be able to bond with him like before, I don't care if we don't become a something like I want to in the future, But I want to be the person who always stays beside him, even I'm just a friend.....Who have a secret feeling for him.

BEAM

Two months and half, That is already a long month that I have been avoiding Forth.

I want to forget his existence, But how can I .... How can I do that when I always stalk his SnS. When every day I always re-read all the conversations we had through LINE, FB and Phone texts.

Every time I saw his name pop out on my SnS telling he was online too, I get happy yet get back to my old mood as he is not sending some message to me, He even stopped visiting here or sending some foods.

The scenario on my head was always like " Great he is online, you are online, Both of you have internet connection, that was good." Me being sarcastic to my self.

Sometimes I always think that I should send him a text but what to say?

I even found my self doing some damn calligraphy of his name, and some doodles of his face. The half of my damn sketch book was already filled with those.

Sometimes I do even day dream about him, like maybe we are one again watching some movie here at home or him ranting his life.

I gone so crazy now I know.... I think I should see a doctor for real.

"You have an crush on him don't you ai'Beam." Kit said, as he sat down in front of me followed by Phana who take a sit beside me and wrapped his arms around my shoulder, But I just removed it instantly.

"Crush?" I asked.

"Forth." Phana stated. Cursing for making my heart palpitate so much just by hearing his name. I should go for a check up.

"You guys are crazy." I told them.

"Not crazy as you are, We have been eyeing you for months already." Kit said

"Look at you, stalking his Facebook profile." Says Phana, and I slam my phone screen down.

"Look at you who turned red when ai'Pha said 'Forth'." Kit stated.

"See you are more red now." Kit pointed out.

"You guys are really crazy."
       I said as I stand up, but when I was about to leave them this strong Phana have hold my wrist and pulled me back to sit.

"Nah..ah.ah... Beam.... We need to talk."
    He said as he pull me.

"So when did it start?" Kit asked.

"Is that why you are avoiding him?" Pha said.

"Avoiding? I'm avoiding no one." I denied.

"Don't even dare to tell a lie to your best friends ai' Beam." Kit threaten.

"Beam, we know that you are avoiding him. I will tell you, He is always asking us about you. Specially last, last month." Phana said.

"If you like him, why are you avoiding him?"

"I don't like him, and I'm not Hiding." I insist.

"Really Beam, Me and Kit are willing to hit your head just to wake up from reality."

"Accept the fact that you have fall for him."

"He is a guy! I should not have those feelings." I declaired, and hisses as I got hit by the rolled paper by both of them.

"Lame reason!!"  They shout in unison.

"All of us three are also guys. Me and Kit and you are straight, thought we. But yes Me and Kit have been bewitched by the charms of our boyfriend's." Phana expressed.

"Ai'Beam, You know to your self that there is nothing wrong about that kind of relationship." Kit phrased.

"I know— but—"

"No but's!! You my dear friend should, No.. I mean.. You Will talk to Forth again!" Kit declared.

"No way!" I opposed.

"You like him, he likes you. talk to him don't waste a friggin time or you will regret!" Pha phrased.

"He did not... like me."

"He do! Beam! Everytime I saw Forth at the Engineering faculty he was acting like you." Kit declared.

"Meaning?"

"He is always just sitting alone in the canteen playing his phone spinning it on the table looking somewhere very far, Staring on his phone. He is not in his usual self as before every time I go to that faculty I always see him with a bunch of people."

"Not to mention that probably the first time he saw you he got interested to you already, Can't you see how he treat you. Dude, even you are my best friend I ain't gonna send you free foods every single day. I ain't gonna spend Money to give you a friggin expensive book that you want, And lastly I will not friggin' wipe your messy face when you eat! I will laugh at you."

"Both of you have feelings for each other ai' Beam, Quit playing hide and seek with Forth."

"You know, that feelings of you will not stop even it takes a year for you to avoid him, As the time pass you will miss him more, you will fall for him more. Believe me, Remember how I used to be."

"Beam, Give me your phone." Kit ordered.

"Why?"

"Just give me that." He said and snatched my phone off my hand.

"I knew it, you are stalking him."
      Kit said as I know he saw Forth's FB profile on the phone screen .

"Here!" He said giving my phone back.

"What the heck did you do?" I asked, checking my phone.

"Nothing, Just help you a little bit." He said shrugging his shoulder, I open my messenger and LINE to check if he send something, not sure if I should feel relief or nervous because he might have sent a message and deleted it.