Sweetest Amore

D I C I O T T O

— x.ᴅ.ʀ.

She took me by surprise when she asked that question. I mean I expected her to ask that, but then on other hand, I didn't know that it will be this soon.

Avoiding her eyes I turned my head to look in front of me. Taking a deep breath I closed my eyes only to see pictures of her teared face when she found out that she lost our baby.

Her face was full of betrayal as I pushed her into that torturing room. The way her face shone with pain as she pointed that fucking gun on her head.

I didn't even realize that tears started to flow down my cheeks until Antea didn't pull me into her chest trying to calm my ragged breathing.

"Hey, hey, shh... I'm here. Don't keep it all in yourself. It won't do any good to you. Instead, let it all out. You will feel better. I'm here. You are okay." She tried to calm me down but all I could feel is my throat tightened as more pictures clouded my mind.

Her shyness when we first met. The way how her eyes shone when she was speaking about something she loves. The way her smile is capable to make my day better and my dark world a brighter place.

A sob broke through me as I remembered how her eyes lose that brightness and became lifeless, dull, numb.

"Take deep breaths." She whispered in my ear and I could feel her lips pressing a soft, tender kiss on my forehead. That action alone made me wrap my hands around bringing her closer to me.

'I just want to hold her. To have her in my hands at least once again.'

"I'm here. You are okay." She whispered running her hand over my back. "Everything will be fine." She croaked out making me lift my head from her embrace only to be met with her tearful eyes.

"I'm so-so sor-ry." I shuttered as I brought my hand cradling her face in it and wiping her tears. "I didn't want to make you cry, again.." I croaked taking a deep breath and pulling her in my chest.

"I.. I'm fine. It's just..  I saw you cry and my hormones just went crazy.." she said with a short laugh making me tightened my hold on her.