"What if it didn't happen?" He asked. It even became more dramatic as I look at the darkness of the sky.
"I don't know. We'll never know." I shortly answered. Pinipigilan kong magsalita nang mas marami dahil pakiramdam ko'y iiyak lang ako sa tabi niya.
I miss him so much.
"Sana pala nakinig na lang ako sa 'yo that night." I can feel his regret when he said those words and it's breaking me more.
"Kung nakinig ka sa akin, hindi ka sana ikakasal bukas." I tried to sound positive. "Be thankful that it happened, Zeke." I felt the heat in my eyes and I know that anytime soon, my tears will start falling.
"Ikaw 'yung gusto kong makasama habambuhay." His voice broke. Hindi ko na napigilan pang tuluyang maiyak.
"But to wish for our continuance is to wish for your child to grow up with a broken family. Ayaw kong maging rason noon, Zeke. Hindi kaya ng konsensya ko."
Every word that I said pierced their way to my heart. Para akong sinasaksak. I never expected that our happy relationship will come to this part.
I grew up with a broken family. Nanay ko lang ang kasama ko because my father has his own family. Anak sa labas.
I grew up aware that I am that type of person and that's the reason why I forced him to stand for the child. Hindi kasalanan ng bata. Wala siyang alam na bunga siya ng pagkakamali and I don't want that child to feel what I felt growing up.
"Tambay tayo sa lovers' lane?" He asked me. I can't help but to feel sadder because we used to stay there - happy together.
A lot of lovers will surround you but we never cared about them. For us, it's just us in our own world. But that was before.
"Dito na lang tayo sa field. Hindi naman na tayo lovers."
AUTHOR'S NOTE:
Insert Moira's Paubaya here. Char!
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What If? (BoyxBoy)
RomanceIn life, we're all bound to ask ourselves this question that we can't even answer because it never really happened in the first place. And no matter how much we wanted to turn back the time, we can no longer do so.
