What If? (BoyxBoy)

CHAPTER FOUR

I will try to live my normal life without him in the picture. I don't know if I can but I know, someway somehow, I will have to start.

"Patrick and Von, sino sa inyo ang gustong magtake over ng client from Pagudpud?" Our senior asked. One of our team members resigned recently so her project will be passed on to us.

"Hala? Sana all na lang talaga na-aassign sa malayong lugar." Cristy commented out of jealousy.

"Ikaw na lang kaya?" I asked Von as he has been waiting for a project for almost a week now and I've just finished mine yesterday.

"This is your much needed breather. Iyo na." He answered.

"Gagsti! Okay lang ako. Nagagawa ko pa namang huminga." I joked around. But kidding aside, kaya ko pa naman talaga. Mukhang hindi ko naman kailangang lumayo para lang maramdamang okay na ako. Besides, all this audit works already consumes much of my time.

"As you say so." He surrendered. "Pero ikaw na lang talaga. Sobrang recent lang ng last fieldwork ko na malayo which I also received kasi dinecline mo so I won't take it this time. Iyo na."

Napaisip ako sa sinabi niyang iyon. Without any hesitations, binibigay ko sa kanya lahat ng malalayong fieldworks because I don't want to be away from Zeke. Sobrang hassle na ng audit life. Bihira na nga lang kaming magkaroon ng oras sa isa't-isa kahit malapit lang naman ang trabaho ko. What more if I take a fieldwork away from the city?

But it has always been my dream. Sa sobrang intoxicating ng audit life, gusto kong maexperience na magtravel habang nagtatrabaho. In fact, I've always envied Von's stories every time he conducts his audit away from the metro. Free travel, free food, enjoyable experiences. After ensuring all his works for the day, he's free to do whatever he wants. Nakakainggit kapag tinitignan ko 'yung pictures sa Instagram story niya kasi iniisip ko na sana ako rin. But instead, I chose to settle. It's my choice kasi ayaw ko rin namang malayo kay Zeke. Ayaw kong iwanan siya and ayaw kong mabawasan pa lalo 'yung kakarampot na naming oras sa isa't-isa.

Right now, there's nothing to hold me back. Tama nga sigurong tanggapin ko na rin ang offer na 'to.

"Mukhang ayaw naman ni Pat, sir. Ako na lang po kaya?" Cristy said which brought back my conscious.

"Wala naman akong sinabi." I shrug her out. "Okay naman na po 'yung report ko, 'no?" I asked our senior to confirm.

"Pinasa ko na sa manager. Okay naman na 'yon." He confirmed.

"Sige po, sir. Ako na po." Pagpayag ko rito.

"Good! May susundo sa 'yo bukas. Pinahanda ko na rin sa kanila lahat ng documents para pwede ka nang magsimula pagdating mo doon." He then said before leaving us.

"Kapag si Von, binibigay mo kaagad pero kapag ako 'yung may gusto, tinatanggap mo 'yung project." Reklamo ni Cristy. "Kung wala ka lang jowa, iisipin kong bet mo si Von, eh."

Wala naman na talaga.

I felt that Von immediately realized that she hit the most sensitive part of me right now.

"Wala talagang preno bibig mo, 'no?" He said while pointing at her.

"Hala? Ano na namang sinabi kong mali?" She defensively asked. Madalas kasi talagang nakakaoffend siya ng tao dahil sa sobrang straight forward niyang magsalita.

Von was supposed to answer her but I held his arms to stop him.

"Wala na akong boyfriend." I said faking my smile afterwards.

"Hala? Sorry, Pat." She said conscientiously.

"No, Cristy. Wala ka naman talagang sinabing mali."