Narcissa Rostand's Journal - The Rostand

Ch 2

I enjoyed studying, and was the Student of Honour through all my years at school. However I liked far more going out with my friends while still being at the top of my game; I was proud.

It was then that I suffered my first and last heartbreak.

His name was Irwin Casanova and he lived in the house besides mine. He was older than me by two years, and I had followed him like a duck since forever. I was simply infatuated, and at the time I had all my life planned to be with him: I had chosen names for children, my future occupation, planned to save enough beas to buy the Mansion closest to the Library... What can I say, I've been with my little plans all my life.

But that was simply not to be. I remember that period of my life with some distaste, not really wanting to believe a man such as him was able to brought me to my knees in that way.

I had asked him, after he graduated, to wait for me; he'd only have to wait a couple of years until I catched up with him and then I would propose in an instant. He even told me he would, smiling down at me while I was blushing in front of him.

And once I knew of his budding courting to one Tamara Garotte, I must admit that I felt more than a bit depressed. For a long time I didn't even think about boys that way. I thought anyone I looked at romantically would just leave me behind - I wouldn't be enough.

That is not to say that I didn't have boy friends. I had lots. Kaiser, whose father was a musketeer, and Rafita, who would be a miner as he was his father's Heir.

And also Godwin. His father was one of the first friends my mother made when she was still a traveler, though I met him at school.

He was one of my rivals, academically speaking, and his parents were both part of the Kingdom's Knights, so we walked the Forest Trail together a lot of times.

For the next years he would be one of my best friends, along with my dear cousins Vicky and Valerie. Gregoire would be born a little before I got to be considered a grown-up.

I graduated with honors, and the very same day I was proposed to be a Shrine Maiden. I acepted the position, not anyone gets to be a follower of Shiznee, and proceeded to work diligently.

Soon after that, as spring was becoming summer, Godwin asked me to try and be his girlfriend. He was my dearest friend, the one who made sure that I would stand up after Irwin's deceit. We were good friends, good partners when fighting monsters and I had much fun together with him.

I accepted, and I could appreciate a sweet side that him, so serious usually, showed to me. He was far more endearing than I could have expected, and his -big, shining- blue eyes, so distint on his darker face, made me feel butterflies I had forgotten ever since Irwin -whom, may I add, had been completely oblivious to my sadness years before. He had still met with me and talked to me as if he were my friend. The first six months after I confirmed the truth of the courting he had I took to avoid him as the plague. After that I didn't look for him, but if he came to me I stayed put and smiled as if nothing was wrong. It became a bit uncomfortable for me, how he treated me as his friend when I wanted nothing to do with him, but I am my mother's daughter. She didn't became one of the dearest of our society by acting as a rotten wench, and that diplomacy she taught to us three. Plus, judging by his acts, Casanova wasn't even aware of the hurt he procured me, so I made nice with him in public, accepted his gifts which I prontly discarded and kept on with my life and those I considered my friends.