I do admit that, before Godwin asked me out, there was a childish, petty part of me that wanted to break off Irwin and Tamara. Not because then I'd ask him out, but simply, purely out of spite. I even thought to groom her as my succesor just so their possible engagement and marriage were to be just that bit derailed.
I even got close to her in order to do it. However, as I got to know her -and she started to trust me-, as I followed Shiznee's designs while watching several other acolytes quit in less than two months, I started to reconsider that idea. And once I began to look at Godwin with new eyes, learning parts of him that were hidden to others, I felt at peace.
My life was good, and beautiful, and that wound of my younger self was healing as I grew, with Godwin and my dearest friend Azalea by my side, and that time alone I had dedicated to Shiznee and to self-reflection.
Instead I forgot anything regarding that idea, and kept on meeting with Tamara, from then on with real friendship in my heart. And since I had told no one of that plan, I kept my secret.
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Narcissa Rostand's Journal - The Rostand
FanfictionA little view of the daily life of the Rostand family through the eyes of their Head of Family Narcissa Rostand, spanning since her childhood and passing through her engagement, work life, motherhood and little manipulations as she recounts her life...
