A/N This is abusive philza au, sorry if u dont like it. Also remember, If I don't update for awhile, read my other books, they are just longer versions of my oneshots.
TW
Anorexia (Starving yourself/puking up your food)
Self-harm
Mentions of Suicide
Abuse (Mentally and Physically)
Panic attacks
Gore
TommyInnit POV
I woke up to the most familiar sound, Wilbur waking me up telling me it was time for breakfast. I didn't want to eat, but I know if I didn't eat, Wilbur would get worried.
"Come on Tommy, it's time to go eat!" Wilbur whisper yelled.
"Alright, alright, I'll be there in a second." I quietly said back, Techno I assumed was awake, but Phil was not. Wilbur headed downstairs, and I shortly after followed him.
"We made pancakes!" I smiled, though it was fake, I didn't want Wilbur to be worried.
"Nice!" I went over and sat down, I ate a few, and excused myself from the table. I usually did to go puke up my food. I couldn't bare eating.
You don't deserve food.
I know.
You should just give up.
I know.
You mean nothing to everyone here.
what..?
Well I guess it was true. The voices are always right. I went up to the mirror and looked at myself. The voices were right. I don't deserve food. I should give up. I mean nothing to everyone. I went to my room, and shut the door behind me. I decided I was gonna see who was awake, or streaming.
Tubbo is live: Playing on the DreamSMP with Ranboo
Just like the voices said; you mean nothing to everyone here. I opened discord and asked Tubbo if I could join him and Ranboo. He agreed to let me join.
"Hello!" I said in my usually energetic tone, but a bit quieter so Mr. Minecraft could sleep.
"Why are you being quiet?" Tubbo asked.
"My father is sleeping, and I don't want to wake him, he had a rough day yesterday at work." I smiled, putting on the fake act.
"Oh alright. I'm just with Ranboo." Tubbo smiled.
"Hello Ranboo!" I pretended to be happy that he was here.
"I saw you were streaming, I didn't look at what is was though. What are you guys up to?" I then heard someones door open and close, I assumed it was Phils.
"Oh thats right, sorry guys, I promised Wilbur that I would hang out with him today. I'll be back sooner or later. Bye!" Ranboo and Tubbo said their goodbyes. I shut down my PC and stayed in my room.
"Tommy. Let me in." I was scared to open the door, but if I didn't he would make it even worse for me. I opened the door and let Phil in. No one knew that he hurt me. I was too good at covering it up.
"H-Hello... sir.." He wouldn't let me call him dad anymore. Just because he blamed me for Kristen's death.
Flashback
I was running around, when I went out to the road and saw a car coming, I just froze. Then I felt something push me, and then I heard crunching noises and what sounded like water going everywhere.
"M-mommy?" I looked over at where I was pushed and saw a bloodied person.
"Mommy...? Hey this isn't funny anymore mommy..." I looked at my mother and I couldn't see who she was anymore, her head was crushed by a tire, her legs were crushed, and her body was mangled, way too much for me to handle, I threw up. I couldn't stop, I heard someone rush outside.
"What the fuck." It was dad.
"Dad! Pl-" I puked again.
"Please it hurts..." Phil turned to me, I didn't see my father anymore. I saw a man who wanted revenge for a loved one.
"Shut up. Get Wilbur or Techno to help you, because I'm not." That's when I lost my dad too.
"TE-" I puked again.
"TECHNO!" I screamed for Techno.
"WILBUR!" I screamed for Wilbur.
"dad..?" I silently said.
No one cares for you.
That's when the voices started. I saw Wilbur rush out, and Techno rush out too. They saw the body but ignored it, they helped their little brother instead of bringing a dead person back to life.
It's all your fault.
"...No it's not..."
No one cares for you.
"But.. wilby and techno..."
