꧁𝙵𝚎𝚎𝚕𝚜 𝙱𝚊𝚍 𝙼𝚊𝚗꧂ A Tommyinnit One-shots book

Sharpener 🌧

TW:self-harm

Characters:
Tommy
Techno
Small mentions of Wilbur Phil Ranboo and Tubbo

Summary: this is a song-fic, Sharpener by Cavetown :) the song is at the top, so yeah- if you listen to the song, you will understand what it's about :)

————————————————————

Tommy was sitting at his desk.
He had had another fight with Tubbo,  but he was in call with the SBI members and Ranboo, which resulted in him getting yelled at again, even if it was Tubbo that had caused the drama, which seemed to be getting more and more frequent.
He looked towards a sharpener that sat next to him

Sharpeners calling me again

He was a month clean, but he continued to stare at the sharpener

He was so tempted to break it, make it so it was just the blade that was intact.

Trying to turn it into some, thing i can draw into my skin.

He did.
He broke the object and began to carve it into his skin, causing thick Scarlett drops to drip onto the desk.

Make it a picture that I love, instead of something i wish I could, get into the bath a scrub right off.

He didn't make them into thin slits, no, he drew a small pictures with it. Several little trees littered his wrists

Why am I ashamed to look, the way I do.

Why did he have to feel this way about himself? Why did he feel so insecure about everything.

'Cause an escape to me, was just a sharpener to you

————————————————————

Big old pill, two-inch around
There's no copping out this time
Tried my best to get it down

He tried to take his medication. They were quite large, so he found it quite difficult.

Sometimes seems like I'm still young
Lookin' at the boy across the sink
Thinking "What the hell have you just done?"

His gaze shifted to the mirror, and then his wrists. The bad voices had gone away, leaving his with the one good voice asking what was wrong with him. 'What have you just done' it would yell.

Why am I ashamed to look the way I do?
All 'cause an escape to me was just a sharpener to you

He fell onto the ground, tears streaming down his face.

Why am I afraid of things I let inside my room?
Just wanted some company, broke the sharpener in two

He heard a knock at the door.
He hesitated for a second, knowing he needed the comfort, yet not wanting anyone to see how vulnerable he truly was.

'N-'

He started, but they already opened the door.
It was Techno.
Tommy sighed softly.
At least it wasn't Wilbur or Phil.
Techno was the only one in the call that had just stayed silent when the youngest was being yelled at. Besides the one time when he had said 'that's enough' to the others.

The first thing the older had seen, was his friend sitting on the ground, small trees carved into his skin, still oozing blood, and his older cuts.
Techno let out a sigh.

You say, why am I like this?
You mean, why am I stupid?
Guess you know you're not tryin' to fix this
You mean, why am I like this?
You say, why am I selfish?
Guess you know, honey, you can't help it

He was pulled into a hug.

Sobs racked both of their bodies.
Their emotional wall finally cracked.

Tommys was weather, and already half cracked, so that was no surprise, but Techno's was stronger, and was not cracked. Barely even chipped.

Tears freely streamed down both their faces.

'I'm sorry' he said i between sobs

'No need to apologize, Tommy' the older had said, once he calmed himself off.

———————————————————

Word count:620

I love cavetown, so expect some more song five in the future :)

I will accept song requests aswell, by the way.

But anyway- hope you enjoyed

-Aphid-