Random Poetry Collection

Hope

Lost in a crowd

But all alone

All over the place

But never at home

Voices get loud

On and on they drone

Rids me of the smile upon my face

Rids me of good memories I can never replace

Don't know how to feel

Don't know what I want to feel

The sensation is just unreal

Thoughts racing on repeat

Confusing my mind and heart

Stressing out is my greatest feat

Just when I think I've got it down, I fall right back to the start

Mom's been on the mind (She died)

Don't know if I would rewind

My future would be mine to control

Wonder what impressions I've made, if any at all

I wish I could take everything back

All my regrets, wrongdoings, and bad relationships

A fresh new start

But God doesn't work that way

What's done is done

And that is that

You truly only live once

And there's not always tomorrow, like they say

But

I've got today

Thank Him for that

Got to make do with what I've got

And forget what I have not

I guess

I'll give my hopelessness a rest

And be thankful for all of that I am blessed with

Make that enough to create my own bliss

Even if I'm at the rockiest bottom

Even if I'm alone on the crowd

I don't need to see the space

To create visual contentment upon my face

Today, I'll try to be okay

For me

Because I'm number one priority

Even though I hate being so high up there

I need to stop this self loathing

And start self- loving

And I'll trade it for nothing

I guess I'll try to anyways

Because after all, I'm only guaranteed today