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Quit smiling- you look like an idiot
Even the 'you should be yourself thing' doesn't apply in this case
Doesn't matter how much of one you are-don't show it
Appearance is everything, and you are quite a hot mess
Inside and out
This problem's got me stumped
I no longer get excited about the things that'd normally get me pumped
Every hint of it I get, they ruin it with their illogical logic
They come creeping like ninjas
They check up on me more than my friends
Like Netflix does, when you're inactive for x amount of time
Except when they check up on me, they get satisfaction from my inactivity
Means they are winning
Finally
Again
Saved by Christ Jesus
But am not deserving of any salvation of any kind
I'm not worth the salvation
A waste of energy on me
I was fearfully and wonderfully made in His image
but that saying is vintage
It's been 19 years since I entired life
It took me 12 to damage it this bad
12 full years-that's a long time
4380 days, to be exact
Now I've spent 7 years of being "fine"
If all the smiles were to be subtracted
Which are few
Can't wait two more years
Like Royal Bliss,
Gonna drink my stupid away
Like Three Days Grace, I'm a Fallen Angel
Never thought I'd fall so far
Every path I take, It's Left Right Wrong
Like Red Hot Chilli Peppers, I need to find the Otherside
The light at the end of the tunnel
Only full of love
Of life, of self
Instead of hiding all those feelings in jars put up on the highest shelves
But I can't
I just keep asking
Like The Black Eyed Peas
Where Is the Love?
Like NF, I'm Lost
My mind is an evil boss
Every laugh I stop
Automatic at this point
Don't care how beautiful they say it is
The smiles are gone
Swept away by the wind
Going who knows where
And if I'll ever see them again

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