Stefan sick/sad fics✨

self harm

Tw: self harm
Request: stefan starts harming himself at school and elena helps him( they are broken up)
Author's note : this happens somewhere in s3 after he gets his humanity back.

Stefan's pov:
Everything was lost. Elena had chosen Damon. I tried to the the right thing. Nothing happened. I hurt people. I killed them. Elena hates me. Everyone hates me. I don't deserve love. It hurts so bad . Everything hurts. I pretend everything is alright but it isn't. My humanity is back on , I feel everything. No one knows. I've been lost in my thoughts as I see Elena passing by me. I can see disgust in her eyes. I remember when I used to be the love of her life. I hate everything. All I feel is pain. I go to the restroom. I see Elena looking at me. But I don't care. I don't want- I can't do this anymore. I check up and I'm all alone. I have to do this. I take out a blade from my pocket. I start cutting. It makes the pain go away momentarily. I have to keep cutting. Physical pain makes me forget the damage I've done. I deserve this. Maybe I'll lose enough blood to die. Maybe it'll be peaceful. Relieving. I don't know and i Don't care. I just have to keep cutting. I hear the bell ring. Everyone will leave. I'm gonna be all alone. I'm always going to be all alone. I deserve it. I have to keep cutting. I see that my left upper arm is full of cuts starting to heal. I move to the right one. I feel tears down my cheek. It doesn't matter. I'm gonna bleed enough to the point where I don't heal and I'm going to die. It's finally going to be over. I keep cutting. I heard someone bang at the door. At first I ignore it. The  person keeps banging ,  "i-it's occupied" I said in a strangely weak voice. "Stefan! Stefan I know you are in there please open up" Elena.

Elena's pov :
I saw him go into the restroom. I swear I had seen a tear roll down his face but it must have been a hallucination because his emotions were turned off. He didn't feel anything. I honestly felt so bad for him. I know it's going to hurt him when he gets his emotions back. I care about him. I know nothing that happened was his fault. He didn't intend any harm. He is literally a self sacrificing saint. I think I hear someone sobbing. Stefan. His emotions were back. The tear was real. Oh my god. I can't let him suffer like that. The bell rings but I ignore it and rush to the restroom. The corridors are empty . I keep banging but he doesn't open up. I'm getting really scared now. I push it. After struggling a lot the door opens. I see Stefan. Covered in cuts sitting in a pool of blood. He did this to himself. I can see he's panicking. "Oh my god Stefan. Stop this- " He is shaking and doesn't drop the blade. His face covered in tears. "No- please go- leave me alone- please.. I have to keep cutting- I can't do this anymore please... " "Stefan NO! " I slowly go near him and he doesn't make a move.. I can see he is scared but he is also lost. "Look at me calm down. I'm here. Drop that blade. Everything's gonna be fine." "NO! EVERYTHING IS NOT GOING TO BE FINE. YOU HATE ME. I- I HATE MYSELF. I CAN'T-" he is on the floor with his hands in his hair. He is crying. This is breaking my heart. I slowly go up to him and hug him tight. He gets startled then continues to sob " I have to kill myself.. Please.. " He is vulnerable. I take this opportunity to remove the blade from his hand. His blood covered hand. "No you don't shh.. Nobody hates you. It's not your fault none of it is. Klaus made you do those things. Calm down. I'm here. You'll get through this. Everyone's here. Nothing's gonna happen to you" He continues to sob and I run my hand around his back trying to soothe him. He doesn't deserve this pain. "Y-you don't hate me? " "No- of course not. Stefan x that wasn't you. I know you didn't want any of this. I know your heart. And I love you. I'm always going to be there for you. Never do this again. He calms down a bit and relaxes in my embrace.

Author's note: I think I'm gonna take a break for a few days but requests are welcome and I'll finish them. It's just gonna take a little bit of time, more than usual because I kind of have a test so I'm gonna be busy for some days. I'll be back and will complete all the requests. I hope you enjoyed reading. I'm so thankful for everyone who's been reading, requesting and supporting I love all of you. 🥺💓