UNREQUITED LOVE-THE UNSTRECHED STRINGS OF TWO HEARTS ✔️

49. ALL ABOUT THE PAST

Shehnaaz Pov

I was crying and I can tell he too was, the difference was mine were loud cries and his as silent as his ownself.
I still don't understand how can he be selfless to do that? Just because he don't do injustice with anyone he chose to destroy his life.
He has been strong for me and now it's my chance to be strong for him, I know he has stored a lot in himself, me staying silent was mine own wish but I can feel his was his helplessness. I calmed myself down before breaking the hug and wiped his tears too that were flowing non stop. Who says a man can not fall weak? Obviously he can...... But there are only a few situations in which they break down..... And our past was something that could break the strongest person in the world too........ I know he wants to share everything now and I will be all ears for him despite the fact that it will pain obviously but less than what I am feeling seeing him go through all this.

Sana: Sidharth.....
Sid: Sweetheart, I need to say it. Don't stop me na and promise me you won't blame yourself or cry after listening everything..... Because whatever happened that is destiny.
Sana: Nhi rok rahi baba.
Sid(sternly) : Promise me Shehnaaz.
Sana: I will try and now can I hug you while you tell everything?
Sid: Of course,abhi jab kiya tha tab pucha tha nahi na...... Aaja.

I hugged him tightly and he was just caressing my back, I love him so so so much, agar yeh jaane ki baat na karta na I'm sure I would have never accepted my feelings towards him. How can a man be so perfect in and out..... I know we both has flaws but together we are perfect....

Sid: Puchogi ya Phir apne man main meri tareef hi karti rahogi....

He surely knows how to lift my mood up

Sana(giggled) : Khud ko zyada importance nhi de rahe aap? Acha chala bata kab pta chala ki that was all a trap.

Sid: 25 January 2015....
Sana: The day you last talked to Kiran.....
Sid: Yeah....
Sana: Tab toh you could have talked to me Sidharth...... I would have..... It was just 9 days not as long as 6 years....
Sid: I know..... But iska reason main already de chuka hoon I didn't felt like...... Use karna hota voh tumhara, tumhari sachaai ka joh main kabhi nhi chahta Shehnaaz, uss din mujhe samajh aa gaya tha ki I am not capable of you, you deserve someone else, who could give you what you actually deserve isliye shayad kabhi contact nhi kiya.

I felt myself getting angrier with this thought, I mean it's my life isn't it my right to decide whom I need in it? Why does he has to overthink everything?

Sana(angrily) : Chod mujhe....
Sid: Arey ab kya kiya maine.....
Sana: How dare you....... Haan samajhta kya hai tu khud ko, theek hain mana tera dimaag gayab ho gaya itne saal tak...... But how dare you decide ki tu mere liye sahi hai ya nhi, kabhi tujhe feel karaaya maine ki mujhe tu nhi koi aur chaiye Sidharth...... Agar ye logic tha na tera mujhe chod kar jaane ka toh I'm sorry mujhe ab bhi yahan nhi rehna, itne saal bita liye teri yaadon ke saath..... aage bhi jee lungi..

Sid: Sorry Sweetheart....

I looked at him to see if was being genuine and he was.....

Sana: Kyun sochta hai tu faltu? Ab assume kar agar tere alawa main kisi aur ke saath hoti tu dekh pata, agar main tere saamne uski baahon main hoti, bol dekh pata kya tu?

I know I'm playing with fire but it's necessary for getting this so logical person who has suddenly crossed all lines of illogical senses back on line..... And I guessed it worked by the way his veins were popping out but seeing him like this I was scared now....

Sid(shouted): Shut the fuck up Shehnaaz.... Kya bol rahi hai?
Sana: kyun, tu toh chahta tha ye, maine toh sirf bola hai....
Sid: Zyada bol rahi hai tu....
Sana: Sach bhi ho sakta tha na, aur tujhe toh chaiye bhi tha..... Kya pta unn 6 saalon main......