(T.W MENTIONS OF ABUSE,KILLING AND RAPE)
I rubbed my eyes as sleep is growing to me,I move around in my girlfriends lap trying to get comfortable without making too much room as it's movie night and the scene is very tense. "Baby" Nat whispers kissing my head "yeah"I say in a hushed tone "go to sleep,your safe with me" she says kissing my lips and pulling a way to look back at the screen. I sit up and sink into Natasha not wanting to hurt her if I jump on her,she rolls her eyes and puts her arm up for me to fully lay into her I shuffle up to her and peck her lips and lie down,her slim fingers comb and play with my hair,massaging my scalp trying to help me fall asleep,I shut my eyes and Natasha keeps her attention on my head,I would say I fell asleep for 5 minutes before Peter screamed at a jump scare that made me wake up.I stir in Natasha's hold and she scolds Peter for being selfish and waking me up, "want me to take you to your room?" She asks me,I slowly nod still not sure as im half awake.
Her strong hands grip around my body and lifts me up, my front area is hugging her torso,I rest my head on her breast area listening to the Russians heat beat,she opens my bedroom door and sets me down on the bed and walks to the door and takes off her shoes and slides into the sheets "you okay Princes" she asks "yeah,can you sleep with me or hold me until I fall asleep and pop out when I'm out" I ask my head on her chest and her holding me tight "of course" she leans downs to kiss my lips and I allow her.I roll over and she spoons me from the back,I grow uncomfortable as her Jean button is digging into my ass "Nat" I whisper "yeah baby" she says "can you sort out your jeans,the button is digging into me" I explain,she quickly gets out the bed and I watch her slowly undo her jeans and pulls them down to her ankles and steps out of the jeans,all of her bottom half is on show and I'm not complaining, "better" she says getting in and we go back to our position her heat pressing against my shorts.I feel safe in Natasha's arms like I'm home with her presence with me.Sleep grows on me and I fall into a deep trance of sleep
Natasha's POV:
I watch as my loving girlfriends heart rate slows down into a sleeping beat,i hold her not ever wanting to let her go,her hair is all spread out on the pillow as her heavy eyes are shut trying to gain energy.
1 hour later :
I wake up to hear muttering my eyes spring open and I sit up listening to what I heard a second ago,I look down to my right to see y/n's forehead grows sweaty as she murmurs again "please..." she jerks her head looking like she is trying to wake up "don't hurt me...I don't want that....I-I won't misbehave"she says stuttering she looks in pain and the sweat forms all around her.
She has told me before she gets nightmares and her past and I have witnessed some of her night terrors and each one worried me but this was the worst I've ever seen. Tears roll down her cheek and she lets out a screen in agony and pain but still doesn't wake up.I hold onto her and she cry's in her sleep and kiss her "y/n,honey your okay" I whisper in her ear,she lets out another sentence "stop....I said no" she states rolling in her sweaty state,tears all down her,my eyes grow weak looking at her in this state,I can't take it anymore I shake her but no reaction,I got up still in my pants and went to the bathroom and got a glass of water and threw it at her face,she screams and sits up in pain and discomfort "n-Nat it happened they did it over and over again I said stop..they wouldn't stop"she puts her head into her hands I grab her and pull her towards me to show I'm here for her.She's never told me what she dreams about she only said she had a bad growing up experience which I related too but the stuff she has said in her sleep is definitely bad,I sway her fragile body side to side reliving some tension as she sobs into my neck and I cry at watching her panic.
Y/N POV:
"It hurts Nat" I let out in sobs,I know she doesn't know what I mean but she is still trying to calm me down, she cradles me and kisses my head every heavy sob I let out "make the p-pain stop" I say trying to clench my fist thinking of all the things I've been through, getting abused,trained,made to kill family members and getting raped all when I was just 14,those were some of my easiest years at the hydra course so you can tell how much damage I've been through . "I know baby,I know" Nat says," "p-please don't l-leave"I sob even harder thinking about everything and re-living my past.
