Warping to Destiny - A Supernatural FanFiction

Chapter 68 - Love 'Em and Leave 'Em

Katie's POV

When Sam and I got to our room, everything just kind of stopped. We stood there just looking at each other for what seemed like minutes. I felt tears well up in my eyes, and I said, really softly, "I'm so scared."

He held me close then, and said, "I know, baby, I know. But I promise you, I will come hone, we will both come home." He held my chin up with his hands and looked right into my eyes. "I promise you," he said again, and kissed me tenderly.

He turned away and began emptying his pockets onto the dresser like he always does. "Did you know your mom had a talk with me yesterday?"

"No, I didn't," she said, "what about?"

"About how I needed to stay positive, about how worrying and even contemplating the possibility of something bad happening can actually bring it on. She's a wise woman," he said looking over at me. "I never had a mother, but if I had, I'd have liked her to be just like yours. She gave me a mental 'smack upside the head,' that I really needed. Heh," he chuckled softly, "she reminded me a lot of Bobby. Bobby would have told me to quit whining and man up."

He came over and embraced me once again. "So let's both do that, okay? Let's stop with these 'maybe' thoughts and believe instead that I will come home to you and Dean will come home to Maggie, because, in the end, we always have." I held him against me as hard as I could and I nodded, because he was right. This man I loved more than life itself, this man who loved me even knowing all my flaws and all the darkness hidden inside me, this man who was perfect in every way, would definitely come back to me, just because he had to.

We took a shower together, not saying much but doing a lot of kissing and holding. Even some smiling and laughing. After the shower he dried us both off. Then he lit a few candles and turned out the lights and we went to bed. I couldn't define my feelings at that moment. I just wanted to hold onto him and never let him go.

Sam's POV

My heart was aching for Katie. I had no idea what to do or say. I just held her in my arms as close as I could, caressing her, kissing her. At some point our loving became lovemaking, but not our usual kind. I didn't feel like playing games with it. I didn't feel like having it be crazy or rough. I just wanted to love her.

I had never had to do this before, to leave behind someone who was more than my lover, someone who was the reason for my very existence, and go away into a danger I might not return from. I had a new respect now for our military men who had to do this all the time. And some of them didn't return.

At some point while she was caressing me her hand found my hardness, and she moaned. She wrapped her leg over me and guided me to where she wanted me to be and pushed herself onto me. I the felt the warm moistness of her, and I thrust my hips toward her as she thrust hers toward me.

"I love you Sammy, I love you so much," she whispered against my chest.

"I love you too, you know I do," I answered into her hair.

We spent a very long time lying together, side by side, with me inside her, sometimes thrusting, sometimes just resting in place. Caressing, kissing, loving, and crying. But nature being what nature was, there came a time when we both got heated up and I rolled over on top of her, thrusting harder and harder. And as my passion rose, so did all my crazy jumbled up emotions - my fear, for her and for me, my anger at having to do this without a choice, my resentment at once again being someone else's puppet. All those strong feelings mixed alongside the overwhelming love I was also feeling for Katie, all of these emotions came together and I found myself pushing harder than I wanted to, faster than I wanted to, all thinking gone, just feelings controlling me.