Always You

CHAPTER 32

"are you sure you don't want to come? It would be better for you to distract yourself a little" Hermione said

"Yes, I'm sure. I have a really strong headache and I just want to go to bed, sleep and, you know, rest"

She nodded "And I don't think Slughorn will notice that I'm not there" I continued to seem convincing

Some days had passed since Harry and I argued. We were okay, but I didn't talk to him so much in the last days, even though I was even more determined than ever to find out what was happening to Draco.

I didn't say to anyone about what Dumbledore had asked me and about that box, because I wanted to be sure.

"Go, you're late" I said letting her out the dorm "Cormac is waiting for you" I laughed

"Wish me luck" She said

"You'll not need it" I said laughing harder.

I knew that Harry would have been at Slughorn's party too and I had a plan. The only problem was that Ron would have remained at the Gryffindor common room.

When I saw that Hermione and Harry had left the common room, and that Dean, Seamus, Neville and Ron were in the common room, I sneaked in their dorm.

I knew where Harry's bed was, and I walked in its direction. It passed a few minutes, but then I found what I was searching.

"Here it is", the marauders map. Harry talked about it to me that summer, and how to use it. he told me about the marauders, Remus, Sirius, James, Harry's father and Peter who betrayed all of them. He also told me about his mother Lily, and even though he had never met them, he was really proud to be their son.

I returned to my dorm, and I sat on my bed

"I solemnly swear that I am up to no good" I said pointing my wand on the piece of paper.

It began to show some writing. I opened it and I saw everyone in the castle. I could see Harry and Hermione who were walking to the party with Luna and Cormac, but my attention was on something else.

I searched his name everywhere "Where are you Draco?" I whisper to myself

"Yes" I found his name. He was walking on a corridor alone, and when I was looking at his name, it disappeared. How was that even possible?

Was there a room that the map didn't show? I thought about it for some minutes

"of course, the room of requirement, Hermione said it last year" it could be only that

I stood up, and when I was on the staircase, I watched in the common room and I saw that Ron was there.

"Mischief managed" I said, I didn't want Ron to find out that I stole Harry's map. I tried to walk without being seen, but I failed

"Hey, Hannah, where are you going?" Ron asked

"Oh, hi Ron, I just have to go to, um, to Blaise, yeah, he has, um, one of my books, and I wanted to have it back, you know study" I said smiling embarrassed, I was terrible on making excuses.

"Oh I see, I can accompany you I-"

"No! I mean, no problem, it will only take few minutes, yeah" I said, and I walked out the common room without hearing his answer. I felt bad about it, because Ron had always been nice to me, but I had to do that alone, if I found Draco with Ron, he would have never told me anything.

I walked to the room of requirement as fast as I could, paying attention no one was following me. When I reached it, I stood in front of the wall, I closed my eyes and I whisper "The room with Draco Malfoy" when I opened my eyes, there was a door, I opened it, trying to make very little noise.

The room was very different than when I went there for DA. There were stacks of objects, I walked in there and I saw him.

He was wearing his black suit; he was so beautiful.

He was watching and touching a strange wardrobe. That wardrobe looked familiar. I tried to focus on it, and I could remember that I saw it the first time I saw Draco after summer holidays. How did he managed to bring it there?

I was walking closer, I didn't want to be seen but I accidentally kicked something on the ground, and a great noise pervaded the room. He turned to see what happened and he looked at me.

"Hi?" I said embarrassed

"Why are you here Hannah?" he asked, he seemed angry, but I wasn't sure.

"um, nothing"

"Tell me the truth"

"this is the truth" I said, he looked at me waiting for the truth to come out

I sighed "Okay, okay, I saw you in the map, and I wanted to talk to you privately"

"the map?" he asked, and I nodded

We remain in silence for a few moments, and then I talked

"what is that?" I said pointing at that cabinet

"Nothing" I looked at him, knowing he was lying

"So, wasn't that wardrobe like this you were contemplating at the end of summer either at Burgin and Burkes?" I asked

"how do you know about that?" he asked alarmed

"I saw you" I said honestly "Draco are you going to tell me what is happening or not?" I asked. I really wanted to know because I was curious, but mostly because I wanted to help him. But he didn't answer

"I can't Hannah, if I tell you everything you will be in danger, and it is the last thing I want right now"

"I don't care Draco, I can help you. Please tell me"

"Why do you care? I broke up with you" the mean Draco was coming back, and I knew he wouldn't have told me anything

"you know what? I don't know why I care so much about you after what you told me, after you broke my heart in million pieces. The only thing I know is that I'm tired to see you in this way, okay? I'm tired to see you always alone, with no one by your side, to see you worried about something, that is struggling you. I'm tired to run after you and try to help you in every way I can. I'm tired not to be taken into consideration by you. And you know why? Because I fucking love you, I'm love with you, so much that it hurts. It hurts to see you like this, and not be able to help. Believe me, I tried so much to forget you and move on, like you said. But I can't. I can't because, because I love you so much, that I never stopped, and I just can't stay away from you" I said, I felt tears running on my cheeks, but I didn't care.

He came closer, he had been silent the whole time, but he was looking at me, right in the eyes, and the butterflies on my stomach started to be heard.

He hugged me "I love you too Han" he whispered. I was sobbing, because I missed him so much, it hurt being away from him. I needed him.

While we were hugging, we sat on the floor, my head in the hollow between his shoulder and his head. I missed his perfume so much, his skin, his touch, everything.

"It's just, I can't say anything right now, Han. I'm sorry for everything, but I promise I will explain everything as soon as I can. I promise." He said. I sighed and I looked up at him.

"Please don't leave me" I said

"I won't" he came closer, he took my face in his hands, he looked at me in the eyes, and he kissed me. I missed it so much, it was like our first time.

I felt butterflies in my stomach, and I kissed him back. When we broke the kiss, he looked at me

"We will be okay, Han, I promise"