Always You

CHAPTER 40

"I can't believe it. you are leaving me Hannah" Ginny said. She was shocked that I was going to live in another place of the castle.

"I hadn't decided it Gin, you know that I rather stay with you, but McGonagall preferred in that way"

She sighed, she was obviously disappointed

I took her hands

"Look. Blaise told me that his friend Theo will come there sometimes, to stay with him, you can do the same. You know that I will be happy about that, every time you want"

She looked at me, as pissed off as I was when I heard McGonagall's decision about that

"Fine" I smiled and kissed her on the cheek.

"thanks for understanding" I said

we stayed in the Gryffindor common room for a long time with Neville and Dean.

We talked about our lessons, and everything like that, but I couldn't focus on the conversation. That day was one of these where I missed Draco a little more than usual.

"Guys, I think I'll be going now, see you tomorrow" I said, I just wanted to stay alone. I needed some space.

"are you sure you want to go there alone?" Dean asked, him and Neville knew about the news. I told them before

I nodded "yeah, it's not that far from here" I smiled.

I exited the room and in less than 5 minutes, I was opening the door of my new dormitory.

There was no one. Blaise was probably in the Slytherin common room with his friends. I sighed and I went to the bathroom.

I looked at the mirror and the only thing that I saw was something I didn't recognize.

I was neglecting myself. I couldn't feel comfortable with myself, not after what happened to Draco, or after being left alone by my best-friends.

I decided to take a hot bath. I locked the door, I lit some candles and I waited until the water was hot enough.

I stayed there, eyes closed, and I tried to avoid every pessimistic thought about anyone.

But I missed him. I missed the love of my life. His perfume, his body, his eyes, his little smirk when he was happy about something and he wanted to share it with me, his hands, his hair, his soul.

I missed everything about him. And he wasn't there with me, he wasn't there, at all.

God, I missed him so much that it hurts, like hell. It was like missing a part of me.

After a while, even though it seemed hours to me, I exited the bathroom, after washing my hair and taking care of myself.

I didn't want to stay in my bedroom. It was full of memory. I put on the walls some photos with Hermione, Ron, Harry, Ginny, Dean, Neville and Seamus. Most of them were taken the night of the Ball. Two years before. Over my bed there were some photos with Draco. I took them when we met at the astronomy tower or in the room of requirement when we were dating the first time. I smiled remembering those days.

I took a book, and I sat on the couch in the little living room in front of the door.

I started to read, playing with Draco's ring Blaise gave me at the end of last year. It was a habit now. Every time I was focusing on something, for example studying or reading a book, I imagined that a part of him was there with me.

Since it was too big for my fingers, during the summer I hung it on a chain. I had hung it around my neck without taking it off. It was there with the necklace Draco gave me for Christmas two years before.

As I was reading, I heard the door opening and I could see Blaise and Theo entering the room. They looked at me

"Hey"

"hi Hannah"

"Hi Guys" I said faking a smile.

They were really great, but in that moment, I really wished to stay alone for a little bit.

Blaise seemed to notice that "Theo will you excuse us for a minute?"

He looked at both of us, but I was still looking at Blaise "sure"

He went to Blaise's bedroom, and he closed the door, leaving us alone

"what's up?" he asked

"Nothing, I was just reading"

"yes, and Theo is intelligent"

"Hey, I heard you" Theo shouted from the bedroom, and we both laughed

"really, it's nothing" I looked at him, but he was looking at the ring I was touching with my fingers

"Do you miss him?" he asked looking up at me

"Of course, I do. You?"

"I miss him everyday" I slightly nodded "but you have me, Ginny, Dean. I know it's hard without Hermione, Potter and Weasley, but, even though I don't like to admit it, they are very intelligent and, whatever they are doing, they know what they have to do, don't they?" I nodded

"you know, it's just today. I miss him more than usual, and I really feel depressed" I laughed, and he chuckled

"I have an idea" he stood up, and he went to his bedroom. I was looking at him confused, but he didn't pay attention. He returned with Theo, and a box

"I know we all are purebloods, and we don't know anything about muggles games, but I found it and I want to play it with you. It will be fun"

"Oh, please Zabini. You are a pain in the ass, you know that right?" Theo asked, making me laugh.

I hid the ring under my shirt, and, even though Theo didn't want to play at first, he was enjoying himself a lot, it was obvious.

After three matches of that games called "Monopoly", Blaise had fallen asleep.

Theo and I started to collect everything and put it in the box.

We weren't talking, and that silence was very embarrassing, and it seemed we both noticed that.

"you know, when Draco was here, we three had a very good friendship. We were there always for each other" he said, smiling melancholy.

I smiled, not knowing what to say.

He continued "when Blaise asked you to the Ball, I didn't even know who you were. I mean I had never noticed you. But when Draco found out, he was really pissed off. And in that moment, I realized he had a really strong crush on you. I had never seen him like that before you came here, with any girl he had"

I blushed a little. "He really changed my life"

"I hope in a good way" we looked at each other, and I nodded.

"good" he said

We continued put everything in order for a little, and when we finished, he looked at me

"I'm glad he found someone like you. I don't know you that well, but you seem cool"

"Thanks?" and we both laughed

"Look, it's very late, maybe you can stay here to sleep, I don't want the Carrows to find out that you wander through the corridors at night. I can transfigure this couch on bed, so you will be more comfortable"

He nodded agreeing "Thanks"

I nodded back smiling.

"By the way, that ring is one of my favourites, it was Draco's right?" I nodded smiling. I didn't realize he noticed that

I woke Blaise up and I told him to go to his bedroom, because Theo needed the couch.

When I was finished, and Theo were on the couch sleeping, I turned off the lights, and I went to my bed.

But all I could do that night was looking at his ring.