Thinking Of You ♡ ~ Leigh Shaw x Reader

ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝟟- 𝔻𝕚𝕤𝕥𝕒𝕟𝕔𝕖

"Y/N... Heyyyyy"

"Shit Uh.. My bad"

"Kind of lost you there.. What was going through your head?" Jules laughed as she continued to wave her hand in my face

"A lot was going through my head Jules.. Still is" I fake smiled at her and looked back down at my notepad

"Is this about....

"Nope.." I interrupted her because she was gonna say is this about Leigh because see, I gave Leigh those few days that her mom encouraged me to do.. I can't even fully put the blame on her mom because I agreed to do it, I thought that's what was best.

Turns out I was wrong.. More wrong than I've ever been.. Who decides oh I'll let my friend be alone while she griefs her dead husband.. That doesn't make any sense whatsoever

I'm glad she has her mom and sister, That's the only thing I'm happy about, I wish I was there to but I ruined that

Those few days I decided she needed that break.. She didn't need a break, She needed her friend

I was so caught up in her needing a break that I pushed my self into working nonstop.. When she'd call I never could answer and when I'd call back she'd answer or hang up.. And that's not all, When she would call and I would answer I'd tell her I'm going to work so I couldn't stop by and when I was free no one would let me in the house

Eventually she gave up on trying to communicate with me.. I call.. No answer, I text.. No reply.. I try to visit, I'm pushed back out the door by Amy or Jules because she doesn't wanna see me.. I have zero contact whatsoever, Also the days or hours she works.. Different than mine

Although.. There was a glimmer of hope one day

I stopped by the studio on a day off and caught her before a class.. We talked for a minute or two before she went to start and later on she asked me to come over to help get something neither she, Amy or Jules couldn't reach.. All three of them convinced me to stay.. And I did, And she actually let me to

We talked all night and watched Bruce Lee movies.. Her decision not mine.. We watched them all night, Arms wrapped around each other until we fell asleep

But I guess I said something in my sleep that pissed her off because once morning came around.. She kicked me out, Not with kind words either.

Today is Uh..September 25th, A few months since Matt died and that is what I've been doing.. Most of that on repeat, Work, Teach.. Something, Anyway, Home, Day off, Mope around the house and

"Y/N.. Do you need your notepad? Please tell me you wrote on it? Or did you zone out again?"

"I don't need my notepad Jules, Yeah I just zoned out a little is all" I shook my head with a forced grin

"What were you thinking about?" She leaned against the counter, Not able to resist being nosey

"Nunya"

"What's that a video game or something?" She squinted her eyes completely clueless and I was about to her good

"Nun ya business.. Ohhh.. boom" I slammed my hands on the counter then held my chest. I've been waiting ages to get her with that joke

"That was the weakest boom I've ever seen, It looked like you didn't even wanna do it" She chuckled trying to change the subject and turning it around onto me

"What? Did you expect me to start kicking shit over.. I will do it and immediately blame it on you" I raised my foot to a lamp a few inches away from kicking it