Anomaly/BTS x F. Reader Fluff COMPLETED

Where I belong...

Y/N POV

I wandered the halls, barely paying attention to those coming and going until I found myself in the hallway of Yoongi's and Namjoon's studio rooms. 'Did Joonie really want me to leave?' I frowned as my vision started to blur from the tears I was holding back. Frustrated,  I wiped them angrily away. I would convince them another way, that was that. I stopped, feeling myself flounder, fight to stay or walk away. A wet chuckle escaped me as my vision started to blur again. 'Maybe...just maybe I was meant to be alo..." 

My train of thought derailed as an arm wrapped around my waist and guided me quickly towards one of the studios. The tears started to slowly make trails down my cheeks. I felt his arms wrap around me, as he pressed my face to his chest as he murmured "I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry Y/N." Over and over again into my hair.

"Joonie..." I murmured out against his chest.

"No, Y/N I messed up. I jumped the gun without hearing your thoughts, plans and ended up being a complete hypocrite," Joonie said while looking down upon my face. I held his wrists gently as he cupped my face, using his thumbs to rub away the tears trickling down my face. He was being so gentle with me, which for some reason was causing more tears to fall down my face, I was so confused. I pushed his hands away, so that I could rub my own hands up and down my face bringing myself under control. I took a couple steps back to create space between us as I lowered my hands. I waited for the dots from rubbing my eyes too hard to dissipate before Joonie came into focus. I leaned carefully against his desk and gazed at him, before sighing.

"Joonie, it is okay for your first reaction to be protect your family," I said softly, as I wrapped my arms around myself feeling like I was heading back at square one, ALONE.

He was watching me carefully, and I knew he didn't like the space I had placed between us. "It is true that I want to protect my family, but you are family now, you aren't alone anymore," he said softly as he moved slowly towards me. He was afraid that I would push him away. "What I said earlier, was a knee jerk reaction brought on by years of trying my best to protect my brothers. I apologize for not thinking before saying anything. I don't want you to leave us, I would be heartbroken, we would be."

He was now in front of me, I wasn't trapped by any means and there was plenty of space for me to move around him. He was waiting for me to make my decision on whether to forgive him or not. "I had made the decision to fight to keep what we have before bringing the news to you because you guys had me convinced that you would not let me go and would support me where possible..." I was fighting a wave of disappointment and anger as I trailed off trying to reign in my emotions.

"I wouldn't let anything ever happen to you guys, you are far more important to so many in the world than I am, so I just want to know if you trust me to do so?" I asked, I hadn't moved towards him at all. This wasn't something that was just going to go away.

"I do trust you to do so, BUT I want you to remember that you are far more important than you realize not just to me, but to everyone else." Joonie said looking down at me, determined but there was warmth in his eyes.

I nodded, I was pretty sure of where I stood with everyone else, minus Kookie, he was throwing me for a loop. "Joonie... what do you want from me?"

He looked at me surprised and then turned thoughtful before answering, "I want for you to know your worth, I want for you to see yourself through our eyes, I want for you to be happy with the choices you have made in order to bring you to this moment, I want you to understand how loved you are..." he trailed off before continuing, "I want a forever with you that I have never really believed possible until meeting you and FINALLY I want for you to be in my arms right now."