Unheard Voice and Unexpressed Feelings [2020-2021]

[2021] My Current Physical Appearance

01Jan2021
I looked at myself in the mirror for half an hour before I slept last night, two hours after greeting the new year. It has been ages since I didn't take a closer look at my physical appearance. I must say I gain weight as my face is getting fatter. I got lots of black spots from the pimples on my forehead. I got some pimples. I got some whiteheads on my face and blackheads on my nose. I got skin tags on my eyebrow. I got dark circles under my eyes.

I look so different now as I looked at our wedding picture in a frame that is hung on the wall. I didn't have dark spots on my forehead and got no pimples on my face then. I've never had problems with the skin on my face. Not to mention the itchiness that I feel on my body that I've been suffering for a year now. I suspected they are just my hormones after giving birth and for having dry skin.

My physical appearance has been one of my insecurities in life and I admit I feel even more insecure now. I've never felt beautiful due to insecurities. I look so tired now. I could use an uninterrupted sleep. I look older but I don't mind it. I'm more concerned about my skin. My skin has been different since I gave birth. I noticed a lot of changes in and on my body since then. I accepted these changes with all my heart. My husband might hear me grumble about itching cos it really is frustrating at times.

These aren't complaints but observations. If I were to experience these changes for a long period of time, I would willingly take it. For I know these are the results of giving birth. Your body will never be the same anymore unless you do something to improve it. I'm blessed for giving birth and having a child. Nothing can compare to the happiness of being a mother. It still amazes me how great our bodies are by conceiving babies in our wombs for 9 months (I had mine for 7 months though).

Yuchae Moon