My Not So Low Quality Self (Social Media Series #5)

Chapter 6

Chapter 6

I was devastated. Everything hurt. My heart is aching because of pain. I can't stop crying and blaming myself for falling in love with the person like him.

That was stupid, I know.

"Zab," Kuya caress my back. I'm sobbing nonstop.

Alam kong nakapalibot sila sa akin at pinagmamasdan ako habang umiiyak.

"Sabi ko naman sa 'yo na hindi ka seseryosohin no'n, 'di ba, Zab? Ang tigas kasi ng ulo mo!" Galit na sabi sa akin ni Ate Cardi.

"Cardi!"

"What? I'm right, right?" Naramdaman ko ang pag-upo niya sa tabi ko. "Zab," she caress my back and made me lean to her. "You hardheaded stupid girl." I cry harded.

"Ate," I cry in her shoulder.

I'm never felt her care but her simple gesture made me cry more.

"Shh. Stop crying na, bitch. You're a Venturanza, don't cry for a wrong person."

I cry my ass until I fell asleep.

When the monday came, I can't decide if I will go to school or not. I don't know how to face him.

I'm embarrassed of myself.

Tanghali na pero nakahiga pa rin ako sa kama ko at walang planong bumangon.

Umupo ako nang bumukas ang pinto at dumungaw si Kuya at Ate. They smiled and enter my room. Umupo sila sa magkabilang gilid ko.

"Okay ka na, sis? Hindi ka ba papasok ngayon?" Kuya asked me.

I just shooked my head.

"Okay, I understand." He kissed my forehead. "Just stay here and rest, ako na ang bahala magpalusot kay Abuela, okay?" Tumango ako.

Laking pasalamat ko sa kanila dahil hindi na nila pinaalam pa kay Abuela ang nangyari dahil paniguradong hindi niya ito palalampasin.

"Don't think too much, Zab. That guy is not worthy," Ate hug me.

Lumabas sila sa kwarto ko pero ilang minuto ang lumipas ay halos mapatalon ako mula sa pagkakaupo nang pabalang na bumukas ang pinto.

Cardi Adelaida Venturanza gracefully enter my room with her usual bitchy aura.

Nasa likod niya ang lahat ng pinsan ko pati ang dalawa kong kapatid.

"Ano na namang drama 'to, Zab?" Mataray niyang tanong.

"Ate,"

"Huwag mo akong ma-Ate-Ate diyan, Elizabeth. Hindi ka daw papasok?" She raised her brow. Tumungo ako at umiling.

"Hindi po,"

"At bakit, huh? Dahil sa lalaking 'yon? Tanga ka ba, huh? Siya dapat ang mahiya dahil sa ginawa niya! And you, get up ang get ready! Papasok ka ngayon!" Sunod-sunod at malakas niyang sabi. Humikbi ako.

"Cardi, ano ba?! My sister is broken right now, can't you see?" Inis na sabi ni Ate. Umirap si Ate Cardi at hinarap siya.

"Kukunsintihin ko ang kapatid ko, Sam? Broken? There'a no place for broken heart, Sam! Dapat makita nang lalaking 'yon kung ano ang nawala sa kaniya! Dapat makita niya kung sino ang sinayang niya! That jerk!" She angrily storm out of my room.

"Okay lang kahit dito ka muna, Zab. Don't mind Cardi." Ate Moneth said. Umupo siya sa tabi ko.

I shooked my head. She is right. Bakit ako magmumukmok? Nasaktan ako, oo, pero hindi naman titigil doon ang lahat.

"Okay lang po,"

"Pero makikita mo siya do'n, Zab."

"Okay lang po, Ate Cardi is right,"

"Pero-"

"Hindi pa naman po malalim," I said to them. More on, convincing myself.

Hindi pa malalim. Gago siya.

Nagpumilit sila na ihatid ako sa room ko pero hindi ako pumayag dahil kaya ko naman ang sarili ko.

"Are you okay? I heard what happened to you and Matt." Bungad ni Ava. Umupo ako sa tabi niya.

"I'm fine."

"That jerk. I can't believe he broke up with you." Sumandal ako sa balikat niya. "Everything will gonna be fine, Zab."

"Really?"

"Of course!"

I don't know if I did something wrong or I'm just not enough for him.

The past week we're happy then the next he suddenly broke up with me with his lame excuse. I don't really get him.

I thought after the break up, everytime will end between us and I'll be okay. I never expect this one is coming right after that.

Matthew Gabriel and his best friend, Amelie are finally together.

I was hurt, not once but twice. My tears fell as I closed my eyes.

When I open my eyes, I smiled when I saw them running towards me with a banner saying, 'Welcome back, bunso!'

"Zab!"

"Kuya! Ate!"

Sinalubong ko ng yakap ang mga kapatid ko. Nasa likod niya ang mga pinsan ko at nakangiti bukod sa ubod ng sungit kong pinsan, Ate Cardi.

"Na-miss ko po kayong lahat," tumingin ako may Ate Cardi. Inirapan niya ako kaya napatawa ako. "Na-miss din po kita, Ate Cardi." I winked at her. Muli siyang umirap.

"The hell? I didn't missed you." Humalakhak ako.

Nauna siyang umuwi sa akin, noong isang buwan pa. Ako naman ay tinapos muna ang last year sa college bago bumalik dito sa California.

"Kumusta naman ang Paris, lil sis?" Tanong ni Kuya.

"May tao pa rin." Tumawa ako at nilampasan siya. Ikinawit ko ang braso ko sa braso ni Ate Cardi.

After that break up, we became the closest. Weird, we have the opposite attitude.

"Ate," pa-cute ko.

"What?"

I sleep when we got home. As much as I want to spent my time with them, I can't. I need to rest. We have so many time ahead.

4 years ago, after my first break up with my first boyfriend, I fly to Paris.

Malaki ang naging epekto sa akin ng pangyayaring 'yon. That wrecked me. Well, before.

Ate Cardi never left my side. Siya ang kasama ko sa Paris. Doon din niya pinagpatuloy ang pag-aaral niya.

I thought Ate Cardi is just insecure of me but I was wrong. She's just like that. She just don't know how to express her concern to everyone.

In fact, she's so warm and soft.

I yawned. I open my phone and checked my phone. Isa-isa kong ni-reply-an ang text ng mga kaibigan kong naiwan sa Paris.

I sigh.

Tuluyan ko nang kinalimutan ang social media. I'm not bitter or something. I just want to.

Lumabas ako nang aking kwarto. The mansion didn't changed at all.

Nandito pa din ang mga gamit noong umalis ako.

I sigh and smiled.

I started a new life years ago and I'll continue it to the place where I stopped.

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Arich Elizabeth - Ey/rich  E/li/za/bet