[R18] My Step Brother

49: Drugged & 'Insincere' Confession

MEIKO'S POV

"You should sleep now Meiko.. I'll go talk to him in his room.."

Nandito ako ngayon sa kwarto ni Ate Lin nakahiga.. dito daw muna ako matulog..

Pumayag din naman ako dahil hindi ko pa kayang harapin si Ivan pagkatapos ng nangyari..

"A-ate.." Tawag ko sa kanya bago sya tuluyang lumabas ng kwarto..

"Hmm?"

"Pano nyo po nalaman na lumabas ako..?"

"Oh.. About that, I was about to sleep earlier when I heard a loud noise sa room ni Ivan so I went there.. and I saw Ivan sitting on the bed while burying his face on his knees... Wala ka don sa kwarto and I figured something happened so I tried to look for you outside.."

"S-sorry...."

Nahihiya pa rin ako sa ginawa ko.. hindi lang kay Ivan pati na rin kay Ate Lin.. dito ko pa ginawa sa pamamahay nila..

"I told you it's fine, Meiko. You didn't mean to hurt him.. I know you tried to do something for his sake but It didn't work out. I'll only get mad at you if you intentionally hurt him------"

"H-hindi po! Hindi ko po magagawa yun sa kanya!"

"I know... these last several years... I can see my brother has taken care of you so well you can't even say no to him.. You've come to believe that you should take full responsibility and repay him no matter what just because he has done so much for you."

Wala akong maisagot sa sinabi ni Ate Lin.. dahil may parte sa kalooban ko na nagsasabi na tama lahat ng sinabi nya.

"A-ate.. p-pwede mo ba akong ihatid sa bahay namin?"

Hindi ako makatulog ng maayos sa pamamahay nila pagkatapos nun..

"I understand.. get your things, I'll wait for you in the car.."

"Salamat po.."

Nginitan nya naman ako bago lumabas ng kwarto nya..

Napabuntong hininga nalang ako.. saka Bumangon ng kama at kinuha yung mga gamit ko bago lumabas..

Nung makalabas na ako sa kwarto ni Ate Lin ay napatingin ako sa kwarto ni Ivan..

Nakasarado na ang pinto nito..

Gusto kong humingi ng tawad sa kanya.. gusto ko syang kausapin pero.. h-hindi ko pa kaya.. ngayon..

Bukas ko nalang sya kakausapin sa skwelahan.. para makapaghanda ako sa mga sasabihin ko.. lalong lalo na ngayon na.... kay keiji....

*Sigh*

⏩⏩  FAST FORWARD ⏩⏩

"Are you really sure about what you said earlier, Meiko?" Tanong ni Ate Lin saken habang nagmamaneho.

"Y-yung ano po..?"

Madami akong sinabi kanina nung mag usap kami sa labas kaya hindi ko alam kung ano ang tinutukoy nya..

"That you'll tell Keiji? Regardless of what may happen after that."

I was silenced for a moment..

When I think about it... It really isn't that simple. Just go around and tell him how I feel. What should I expect after that? That people will be happy with us and accept us? No..

In the first place, We're never meant to feel this towards each other..

In a glimpse of a moment, I've thought of backing down, keeping it to myself instead until I forget about it..