[R18] My Step Brother

16: Guilt

MEIKO'S POV

Nagising ako ng maaga...

Kinapa ko naman ang hinihigaan ko dahil hindi ito malambot kagaya ng kama..

H-huh?!!!

Tumingala ako at nakita ko si Kuya na nakasandal sa kama at nagsisigarilyo.. Wag mo sabihing... natulog ako na nakasandal sa dibdib nya?!!!

Agad naman akong lumayo sa kanya..

"You're awake, Did you had a good sleep on my chest?"

?!!?!!!

"Pano nangyari------"

"Don't ask me, I woke up and you're already clinging on me.. Mind what you're doing during your sleep especially when you're naked.. Be thankful I managed to calm myself down or else.."

"Edi sana inalis mo yung pagkakahawak ko! Malay ko ba kung ginawa ko yun habang natutulog ako?!"

Tumawa sya ng mahina at nilagay yung sigarilyo sa bedside table..

Nagulantang ako nung bigla syang lumapit saken.. agad ko namang hinigpitan ang hawak ko sa kumot na tumatakip sa katawan ko..

"How was your first time?" He smirked.

?!!?!!!

L-last night...

We really did it...

H-hindi ako makapaniwala...

Binigay ko na sa kanya yung------.

H-hindi..

Paano nato? Ano nang gagawin ko? Pano kung malaman ni mama? Anong sasabihin ko?

"Stop looking so fcking miserable.. You're overthinking right now, Meiko"

"Hindi ako katulad mo Kuya.."

"Stop calling me that after we had sex. It's so damn annoying.."

Tinalikuran ko sya..

Nakaramdam ako ng takot at kaba. Pakiramdam ko naiiyak ako sa dahil sa nangyari.. Sa kanya ko talaga binigay yun.. It wasn't supposed to be like this..

Hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala na may nangyari samin.. and I let that happen.. Kasalanan ko rin to..

Hindi ko maintindihan, parang wala ako sa sarili ko kagabi..

Pinunasan ko yung mata ko..

"Even if you cry a thousand of pales, you won't get your virginity back. What's the deal about virginity though? Is it that important for you?"

"H-hindi mo maintindihan yun, Keiji"

"Come on now, I'm sure people won't mind if you're a virgin or not even the person you want to be with in the future. Stop overthinking and making a big deal out of everything, Meiko"

Napalingon ako sa direksyon nya..

He must be so satisfied that he got what he wants in the end..

"Stop looking at me like that.."

Bigla nyang hinaplos ang mukha ko.

Hawakan nya palang ako ay iba na agad ang nararamdaman ko.

"You're crying for yourself. We both wanted it.. I gave you a chance to push me away but you didn't.. you let me have my way on you last night.."

"Alam ko!! Wag mong ipaglandakan saken na ginusto ko lahat ng yun! H-hindi ko lang alam kung anong-----"

"Damn.. so you're playing the victim now? Whatever.. Isipin mo kung anong gusto mong isipin, I'll let it slip since you let me do you yesterday"