Breaking point

Chapter 59 - Hide N Seek

"as much as you don't want to be, you are Akilina Brooklyn Volkova. You have dark brown hair and bright green eyes" Henrik moves Akilina's hair from her eyes. Sweat glazing her forehead. He looked directly into her eyes. "You are the daughter of James Barnes and Natalia Romanova. You were born into hydra. But you will not die there."

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"We should wipe her, its been too long."

"The winter soilder could go years without being wiped. The mission went well. She adapted."

"She killed 16 more people then she was ordered too."

"Your reprimanding her for killing? Shield agents too? You punish her for killing she'll hesitate the next time. And if I'm correct, no witnesses means no witnesses. She was ordered to make sure there was no witnesses. She, followed, orders."

"but -"

"Isn't the saying 'when you punish a child for their honesty, they begin to lie'? Right now we are waiting for a sign her memories are coming back, she won't hide it, if her memories are coming back. If you wipe her memories now, as a punishment for doing what hydra has taught her to do, maybe she won't be forthcoming when her memories do, start, to come back."

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"you, you controlled..... everything......."

"no, not everything."

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Akilina and Henrik were on edge. The mission in their eyes had been too close to unsuccessful. They knew the punishment would be sever. Even possibly getting wiped. Which would mean they'd loose years of progress.

Months of getting her memories back.

Years of learning to control the winter soldier.

She was so close. She could almost taste freedom.

It was getting harder keeping it all from Zoya.

Akilina loved Zoya, as a sister, but she couldn't bring herself to trust her. Something happened when alina brought her back. Zoya was broken. Not her old self.

Henrik completely agreed on not trusting her.

And anyways, the less people that knew about her and Henriks plan, the better.

"For fucks sake woman."

Akilina looked towards Henrik. Eyebrows raised.

"Oh good morning sunshine, I've been trying to get your attention for 20 minutes."

"You've been trying to get my attention a lot longer than that."

"While that's very true, we need to talk."

Akilina lay down on her bed. Staring blankly at the ceiling waiting for him to continue.

"Your haven't been your usual peppy self. What's up? Is it your brain?"

"peppy" Akilina mumbled "fucking peppy. Of all the words, you choose, peppy."

"Of course, its such a you word. It discribes you to a t."

Akilina looks at him with a smile " at least I'm not a negative nelly like you."

"oh aren't you creative."

"alright nelly what did you actually want to talk about besides my mental state."

"Well, peppy, I happen to have a lot riding on your mental state. So I do in fact want to know how it is."

"Well, you know, its, peppy, like you said."

When she didn't get a snarky comment back she looked at Henrik. He had a small smile on his face but was waiting for her to actually talk about how she was feeling.

"I'm unconvinced."

"Well sorry if I'd rather not talk about my thoughts and feelings."

"And whys that?"

She blinked and sat up annoyance creeping up on her. She didn't like talking about stuff like this. It made her skin crawl, she always felt uncomfortable talking about herself. It made her feel impossibly paranoid and distrusting even toward Henrik, who has literally been inside her head and she, his.

"because I'd rather just leave them as it is."

Henriks face contorted in confusion until it softened.

" Your trying to hide again. From your feelings and emotions. From yourself."

His tone was soft while hers was unsteady.

"How does one hide from one's self?"

"Stop, your too smart to act dumb, you just look dumb."

She was pissing him off now. He was just trying to help her and she wasn't having any of it.

I don't need help.

I never have.

I never will.

Don't be ignorant.

"Out if both of us I don't think you should be talking to me about 'hiding' from my feelings."

"And what's that supposed to mean? "

"I mean this whole revenge fantasy of yours. It is truly a revenge fantasy, or a product of suppressed anger and self hatred from being the reason your sisters dead."

Henriks glare was deadly and the fake smile on Akilina's face was making him murderous.

Akilina had a burning feeling in he chest, wither it was guilt or anger she couldn't decide. Probably both.

" If we're talking about being the reason our siblings are dead, your winning."

"Oh yeah, I've even killed one directly, shame really, he was quite nice."

A lump was forming in Akilina's throat.

A voice broke the tension between the two. "Will you too shut the fuck up already!" Zoya shouts from her cell.

Akilina's eyes widened in realisation, Henrik had visibly paled.

"shit" "Дерьмо" (shit) they spoke symoltaneously.

Akilina flopped back down onto her bed with a frustrated groan.

"you think she -"

"probably"

She heard Henrik fall onto his bed and groan much like she did.

"This argument isn't over."

"agreed"

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"There are conserns."

"oh?"

"that the boy and the asset are getting to close."

"oh."

"we want to move them into different cells."

"no, I've a better idea. Anything else? "

"mission report from the infiltration."

"oh...."

"they think their up to something. Something big."