Becoming an Oni in this land of illusion

Chapter 22

I woke up this morning with Marisa hugging me per usual...

But her face is way too close

And strangely enough, I don't hate it...

Probably the only person that is been close to me is Stella...

Wait... She is the only one I've interacted with

I always made sure that all of my conversations are at least an arm's length of distance

And I always tend to fade away if Reimu or Rinnosuke intrude on my personal space

Even Kasen can't enter it though she probably thinks that I'm very bad at close-up conversations and knows that distance is important

Unlike a certain shrine maiden who will shake you because you won't give any money

Is it just me or is she closer than before?

Did my sense of distance worsen because I think too much?

Well... I guess let me reminisce about my past since I don't know what to do right now except wait for her to wake up

My relationship with my father is been like that from the start

No talks, and no intimacy it's like a stranger you see in the streets just passing by and forget about them the next second

I grew up like an orphaned child despite I'm inside of my home

Honestly, I guess I should be orphaned rather than stay there

When I was two I realized the kids that I am with is my brothers and sisters due to the similarities in our appearance and I am sure the majority of children were from an orphanage too

I guess it's hell if you aren't born into a normal family

Each one of us has a maid some of the maids are good while some are bad I'm stuck with an abusive type who always complains how their life suck

And they use me as an object to release their rage like we can change position if she wanted

Apparently what they want isn't a child but a pseudo soldier that will be loyal to the 'family'

Various drugs have been injected into our bloodstream and our numbers are faster dwindling

From an original 80 people to 45

I'm one of the people who got quite a bad side effects from the drugs

It made me feral like a chained wolf will bite and scratch everything whatever has closed to me

I'm sure I will get disposed of but instead, a doctor takes interest in me on how I didn't die

And a form of new torture implements on me

It hurt very bad every session until I can't take it anymore and trashed everything that it made the chains snapped and metal was destroyed by me

But too bad the guards are very swift that I'm sure I've been shot that it made me feel it's not bad to die

But despite it being shot I made sure to return the favor by making the one that shook me metal fragments that I forcefully put into his mouth after I throw the metal bed on him

It's an indirect kill since the metal is the one that killed him

As I lost consciousness-

Ehhh?!!

What just happened?! I felt something soft just connected to my lips

It's very quick but I felt it

I look quite intently at Marisa and only see her closed eyes