Becoming an Oni in this land of illusion

Chapter 83

The weight of killing her true self, Sofia, bore down on Ibaraki, intertwining a complex blend of emotions within her. Relief mingled with guilt and uncertainty, forming a tangled web of conflicting thoughts and emotions.

On one hand, Ibaraki felt a sense of relief that the threat her true self posed to herself and her loved ones had been eradicated. The burden of constant danger and potential harm had been lifted, allowing for a momentary respite. But the relief was tinged with a deep sense of guilt, as she questioned the morality of her decision.

The choice to eliminate her true self had not come easily. It was a difficult and agonizing decision, made with the intention of protecting herself and those she cared about. Yet, despite the rationality behind her actions, Ibaraki couldn't help but feel a pang of remorse.

As she sighed heavily, a weariness settled upon her. The weight of the conflicting emotions threatened to immobilize her, making it difficult to find the motivation to move forward. While she recognized the necessity of her actions, a part of her personal belief system found it wrong to extinguish a part of herself, regardless of the circumstances.

Caught in this internal struggle, Ibaraki knew she couldn't dwell in this state for long. She needed to find a way to reconcile the choices she had made with the person she wanted to be. It was a journey she would have to undertake, grappling with the complexities of her actions and seeking solace in her own understanding of right and wrong.

Ibaraki attempted to ignite the flame within her, to regain the fiery passion that had always fueled her actions. But no matter what she tried, her attempts fell short. It was as if her current state of confusion and inner turmoil had dampened her ability to wield the flames that were her very essence.

"I believe I need some time to clear my mind," Ibaraki muttered to herself, her voice tinged with a hint of frustration. With a longing gaze at the darkened world outside, she made up her mind to leave without uttering a word to anyone. The cool night air beckoned to her, promising a momentary respite from the tumultuous thoughts swirling within.

As she stepped outside, intending to make her way to the car, she was taken aback by an unexpected sight. Shuten, her fellow Oni and trusted companion sat patiently in the driver's seat, a knowing smile gracing her lips. It seemed Shuten had sensed Ibaraki's need for solace and had taken it upon herself to be there for her.

"Shuten?" Ibaraki exclaimed, her surprise evident in her voice as she laid eyes on her unexpected companion. The sight of Shuten sitting in the driver's seat of the car sent a wave of mixed emotions coursing through Ibaraki's being.

In that moment, a myriad of questions flooded her mind. How did Shuten know she needed solace? Why did she come here to wait for her? Ibaraki couldn't help but feel a glimmer of hope amidst the confusion that had clouded her thoughts.

Their gazes met, and Ibaraki saw a flicker of understanding and compassion in Shuten's eyes. It was as if Shuten knew the weight that burdened Ibaraki's heart and was offering her unwavering support in her time of need.

Speechless for a brief moment, Ibaraki collected herself and mustered a faint smile. "Shuten, thank you," she murmured, her voice filled with genuine gratitude. In the midst of her confusion, Shuten's unexpected presence was like a beacon of light, guiding her toward a path of clarity and understanding.

Without further hesitation, Ibaraki approached the car and settled into the passenger seat beside Shuten. As they embarked on this impromptu journey, Ibaraki couldn't help but feel a sense of comfort in knowing that she wasn't alone.

Shuten started the car, its engine purring softly as they glided into the night. The wind rushed in through the open windows, carrying with it a refreshing chill that brushed against Ibaraki's face. With each gust, her muddled mind began to clear ever so slightly, granting her a momentary respite from the storm within.