Kyun Rabba?

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Karishma utho!
Karishma!
Wake Up!
For god's sake wake up, please!
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She could hear these voices but her body was too tired to wake up, she wanted to sleep, sleep forever.
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Nai aaj nai, abb nai. Kon phir uthega, kon phir mar mar ke jiyega. Ho gaya jo hona tha, kar liya jo karna tha. Ab dhadkan dheere hoti jaa rahi hai, saasein kam hoti jaa rahi hai, man halka hote jaa raha hai. Ab nai uthna hume. Aakhein band ki hai toh lag raha hai woh paas hi hai, humare sar ko pyaar se sehla rahi hai, humari taraf nazm aakhon se dekh rahi hai. Aur kaano ke paas aake bol rahi hai, "ab chal yahan se". Bhut thak gaye the hum, aaj jaa ke aaram mila hai, bhut roone ke baad aaj jaake khushi mili hai, bhut zamane baad aaj sukun mila hai. Soo jane ka sukoon. Mar jaane ka sukoon. Haseena, uske paas rehne ka sukoon. Hum dur hona chahte the unse par nai ho sakte. Pta nai kyu, bas nai ho sakte. Aisa rishta hai humara jo kabhi toot nai sakta, chahe woh hume tod de. Dekho tod bhi diya. Fir kabhi aayenge wapas shayad iss baar humse jo dur hua woh tab na dur ho. Par iss wari nai. Ab nai jaagna hume.
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Then Karishma sees Haseena who was standing and smiling at Karishma. Haseena forwards her hand to Karishma. Karishma holds  it and goes with her, and, with a flash Karishma wakes up.
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Divya who was trying to wake up Karishma hugs her tightly and kisses her forehead.
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D- Tum theek ho. Kyu darati ho hume aisa haan. Kabse tum aisi hi padi ho, Karishma hum mar jayenge.
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With this statement Karishma looks at Divya with tears shedding from her eyes.
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KS- Ama ab aap toh mat bolo aisa. Aur kitna khoye hum, aapko nai kho sakte hai. Aapko humari kasam agar aapne aisa kuch khaha toh.
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DS- Acha? Toh kyu karti ho yeh? Tumhe pta bhi hai tum kabse aise behosh padi ho
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KS- Kab se?
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DS- Pichle ek hafte se Karishma. Dekho apne aas paas.
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KS sees that there was a IV drip injected in her arm which was giving her glucose. Beside her there was a monitor which was showing Karishma's heartbeat. Her whole room was changed into a Hospital room. Karishma amazedly looks at Divya.
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KS- Hum ek hafte se?
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Divya- Haan, ab bolo kya hua tha?
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KS tries to remember everything.
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KS- Hum room mai aaye the aur Haseena... Haan hum room mai aaye apni samaan dekh rahe the ki humara sar jor se ghuma aur hum behosh ho gaye the... Thoda stress ho gaya tha uss din ke wajah se
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DS takes Karishma hands and rubs gently.
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DS- Jab maine kuch kaha hi nai toh fir kyu itni stressed thi. Karishma, mujhe, naa toh Anubhav ko, farak padhta hai ki log tumhare baare mai kya bol rahe hai, kya kar rahe hai. Mujhe farak padhta hai toh sirf tumse. Ki tum kaise sab handle kar rahi ho. Aur uss din bhi hum kaam aadhe pe chodh ke aaye the isliye bina kuch kahe chale gaye... Beta, I am Proud of you. Thi, hun aur hamesha se rahungi. Tumhe chinta karne ki koi jarurat nai hai, thik hai. Tum jaisi ho waise raho, saaf dil ki, bina kisi dar ke sach ko samne rakhne wali. Yahi toh tumhe, Karishma Singh banata hai. Hainaa? (KS nods) Ab tum aaram karo, mai doctor ko batati hun aur khana bhi banana hai.
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Karishma nods and DS gives a forehead kiss to Karishma and leaves the room.
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Karishma lies down on the bed. She checks her phone, after scrolling through some school messages she keeps her phone back.
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KS- Ama... Ab kaa kare? Isse move on karna nai hota kya? Hume ab aur nai rehna aise. Ab hum theek hona chahte hai. Acha mehsoos karna chahte hai, par jo raita humne failaya hai usse lagta toh nai aisa hoga.
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HM- Ho sakta hai.
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KS- Aap? (Karishma searches for her medicines but Haseena keeps her hand over her hand and she stops)
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HM- Chahe kuch bhi bol le aap humse dur nai jaa paayengi.
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KS- Ab nai! Ab hum hoke dikhayenge. Bas bhut hua. Ab hum apne zajbaaton ki bali nai chadhne denge. Ab sab normal hoga sab. Aur yeh hum aapse wada karte, aur yeh toh pura Lucknow jaanta hai, ki Karishma Singh kabhi aapne waadon se mukarti nai.
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HM- Karishma try to understand.
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KS- No! Not this time. Aap kya chahti hai humse? Aapke chakkar mai 7 din se coma mai the, 2 saal se pagal bane ghum rahe the, kuch din pehle ek ladki ko marte dum Tak maara hai humne. Aap karwana kya chahti hai humse! (With this she throws a vase towards Haseena)
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HM- Humne? (Laughs sarcastically) Humne karaya yaa khud hui aap? Shayad tak aap bhul rahi hai ki yeh schizophrenia aapko hai. Aur hum aapki imagination hai. Aap chahti thi iss liye hum aaye. Sab aapne Kiya hai Karishma!
You are the main reason for all this.
Agar tum kamzor nai hoti toh yeh sab nai hota.
Agar tum mai jara si himmat hoti toh koi tumhe tang nai karta, jisse tum akeli nai hoti. Agar tum...
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KS- Bas!
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HM- Kyu? Sach suna nai Jaa Raha? Tum fir se woi galti kar rahi ho. Bhaag Rahi ho.
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KS- Haan toh bhagne dijiye, kon nai bhagta? Sab kahin na kahin koi dukh se, pareshani se bhaagte hai. Yeh jo chehre hai naa inn sab Mai ek raz chupa rehta hai. Koi masum nai hai aur na hi koi mahan jo apni galti se naa bhaage.
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HM- Toh kya humse dosti karna aapke liye ab galti hai? (She knew the answer but somewhere she expected Karishma to say something else)
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KS- Haan! Bhut badi galti hai humari, jisko hum kabhi sudhar nai sakte, badal nai sakte. 2 saal, Haseena!
2 saal, Mai hum ek aise insaan ke itna kareeb aa gaye jo kabhi humara tha hi nai.
Jo exist hi nai karta tha. Aapko kya pta Hume kaise feel ho raha hai.
Yeh dard sirf hum jaante hai aur seh rahe hai. Ab please, aap chali jaiye yahan se. Aap humari takat thi, par ab aapko dekh ke hum Kamzor hote hai.
Plz go. Plz (Karishma cries hysterically and takes the pill, she closes her eyes and lies straight on her bed)
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It's all dark here. Everything!
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"Ab kya baaki reh gaya hai? Sabko zindagi barbaad karne ke baad bhi hum kyu hai idhar. Aakhir humari kismat chahti kya hai humse? Hume laga tha sab khatam ho gaya jab hume laga hum mar chuke hai, par woh toh coma tha. Woh bhi bas 7 din ka tamasha. Aisi uljhan mai kyu dala hume? Humara wajood kho gaya hai. Khud ko aaine mai dekh ke pehchan nai paa rahe.

Kya ho gaye hai hum? Kya! Itni jaldi humare bure din wapas laut ke aa gaye. Agar aise hi rakhna tha toh yeh reality check diya hi kyu bhagwan ki Haseena humara bhram hai.

Aakhir kyu? Aapko humari khushi bhi nai dekhi jaati naa humara dukh. Kaa kare hum? Aap hi bataiye. Har waqt khud ko khota hua mehsoos kar rahe hai hum. Har din khoo rahe hai hum. Khudko, apni family ko, apni life ko. Par ab bas! Aur nai. Ab hum ladenge. Aapse. Haseena se, Apni zindagi se. Nai haarenge hum. Har din ladenge!
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Karishma in an  argument with her Life.

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