this should've been added to last chapter but me is dumb and already uploaded it and only realised now that I missed this part so enjoy this small chapter
Sweet nothing- Taylor swift
They said the end is coming
Everyone is up to something
I find myself running home to your sweet nothings
Outside they're pushing and shoving
You're in the kitchen humming
All that you ever wanted from me was sweet nothing
On the way I wrote a poem
You say"What a mind"
This happens all the time
Industry disrupters and soul deconstructions
"You should be doing more"
To you I can admit im just too soft for all of it
When I got home I put away the groceries and let myself sink into the couch trying not to let earlier emotions come up, trying to keep my tears from spilling.
I stared at the wall not thinking, not keeping track of time completely zoned out.
"Andy?" Timothee's soft voice broke me out of my stare, he was kneeling infront of me, I hadn't even noticed him coming home and walking over to me.
I let myself fall forward into his arms and he caught me like I knew he would. "Oh honey" he whispered as he went to sit on the couch with me in his lap.
"It's okay, I've got you" he whispered holding me close to comfort me as I allowed myself to cry. Pauls words echoing in the back of my mind didn't help.
"What happened? They only told me Paul had to pick you up from the grocery store and that your car will be brought later" Timmy asked.
"There was a shit ton of paps outside the grocery store, it was really bad this time" Timothee frowned at the information. "I yelled at them, that felt kinda good I guess" Timothee shook his head with a small smile "I bet it did" he whispered pressing a kiss to my forehead as I debated telling him the words that have been on the tip of my tongue for some time now.
I pushed myself over the ledge and outed the words I have wanted to say to him for a long time.
"I don't think I can do this for much longer" it was barely a whisper, but he heard me, his whole body stiffened and I immediately regretted the truth as he sat up straighter making me sit next to him.
"I don't think I can handle these comments anymore, I am trying to be brave but I am getting tired of it" Timothee didn't look at me, he didn't need to for me to know what kind of look was displayed on his face.
Paul's words rang in my mind, 'he doesn't think he's worthy enough for you'.
"No body said this would be easy, but no one told me it would be this hard" he still stayed silent.
"I never asked for this and I never expected this to happen, I love going to the library to make my home work, or sitting in the park to sketch or in some random café, I love taking ling walks but now I can't do any of those things anymore, not without being recognised, not without people asking for a picture, not without paparazzi following me, yelling at me, trying to touch me, actually managing to get their hands on me, not without every move of mine being analysed and put on these twitter accounts with inappropriate comments lining up underneath and I hate it, god I fucking hate this" I ranted
"You hate this" timothee whispered "I hate this part of it yes, you choose the spotlight, you knew the price of fame before you became an actor, I never wanted this"
Suddenly he looked at me and I noticed the tears in his eyes "you don't want me?" He asked brokenly
'Timothee didn't believe you would ever like him back, didn't deem himself worthy enough for you'
'Timtohee is good at pretending everything is okay'
"No timmy" I sighed "are you even listening? I want you, I want you so bad, I just don't want all of these bad things that come with it" he looked down at the floor, not believing me.
I reached my hands out cupping his cheeks and making him look at me. "Do you think I would even be here if I didn't want you? I love you timothee, you know I love you, and I'm not saying I'm leaving, I'm not going anywhere that I can promise, but I don't think I'll stay sane if this keeps going for much longer"
His teary eyes met mine "god timmy I love you so fucking much, please don't ever doubt that, I want you, I really do, I'm not leaving I promise" I said through my own tears resting my forehead against his.
"Promise?" He asked weakly "promise" I told him.
"Je t'aime aussi" he whispered in french before pecking my lips "je t'aime tellement" he said before placing another kiss on my lips.
"J'ai peur que ça me brise quand tu partiras" he spoke the words he was afraid to say in french so he had still said them, still meant them.
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Translations:
(1 I love you too
(2 I love you so much
(3 I'm afraid it will break me when you leave
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Mastermind – taylor swift
Once upon a time the planets and the fates and all the stars aligned
You and I ended up in the same room at the same time
And the touch of a hand lit the fuse
A chain reaction of countermoves
To asses the equation of you
Checkmate I couldn't lose
What if I told you non of it was accidental and the first night that you saw me nothing was gonna stop me
What if I told you I'm a master mind
And now you're mine
No one wanted to play with me as a little kid
So I've been scheming like a criminal ever since
To make them love me and make it seem effortless
This is the first time I've felt the need to confess
You can't tell me mastermind wasn't made for timmy and Andy
Italics is timmy's POV
Underline Andy's
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