Always

Part 39

Jax Martinéz POV

Im holding her tight in my arms. I know she isn't sleeping and she knows that I'm awake too. I never want to let go of this moment. Her in my arms. Where she's safe, from everything, from Jack. But how am I supposed to protect her from everything when I am the one making her go thought this shit. I know she would be better off without me. But I don't have the power to leave her, I still need her. And she still needs my protection. At least until this is over. 

I looked down at her and she turned around to look at me. She looked at my eyes and then down to my lips, and I liked my lips before kissing her. Her lips are soft and warm. 

She starred deeply into my eyes. "Can you promise me something?" She asked and I looked at her before nodding. "Yeah what?" I asked and she looked down and then up in my eyes again. Oh god I could stare at those light blue eyes for hours... The way she looks at me its something I never felt before. 

"Promise me that you will stay with me forever?" She asked and I slammed my lips against her. "Always" I mumbled between our kisses and she giggled and rolled over. 

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I dropped her off at her house, she looked happy. I really hope she really are happy. I actually hate this, I hate her, I hate her for making me feel this way, I hate her for making me care about her, think about her. I somehow miss the old me, I miss to just ignore everything and everyone. But I don't want to go back to that, not as long as I have her by my side. 

I closed the car door and lit my cigarette, shit I have to calm my nerves. I haven't been taking a cigarette for days. I really needed this one. I dropped the cigarette on the damp ground and looked around. 

I opened my phone and saw the clock, already 6 PM? Ian sent me a message. 

Ian: Party, Tonight? Please? 

I sighted

Me:Not in the mood

Ian: Since when are you this boring? Is it Ashley. 

Me:Alr, what time? 

Ian: 8 PM 

I really don't want to go, but it's for Ian he wants me there. Ashley might be there. Wait why would she? Emma and her had that big fight... I groaned and walked up to my apartment. If I take a shower I might calm my nerves even better. 

It didn't help, nothing is helping. I need her. Alright what the fuck is wrong with me? I have been without her for one hour! Calm down Jax. Something is wrong? I feel like something is wrong. 

I pulled a black hoodie over my head and walked out the the kitchen. I opened the bottle of whiskey, this might help. I flinched by the hard three knocks on my door! "What the fuck?" I mumbled and opened the door. Three police officers walked right into my apartment. "What the fuck do you think you're doing?" I asked and they grabbed me by my arm. "You're under arrest!" One of them said with a stern cold voice. I tried to pull away but they grabbed my other arm and handcuffed me. "What the fuck, I haven't done anything?!" I Yelled but no one of them answered. 

Ashley Roberts POV

Its dark outside, it has darkened already its only 8 PM I thought to myself and walked down the stairs to the kitchen. It's dark in the house too, I don't know if dad is home or not actually. Paul might be home?  I entered the kitchen and opened the fridge. Hmm...Pasta? It felt like I was standing there for hours. What should I eat? I ended up with some left overs from a few days ago. 

I looked out trough the window while warming my lasagne. My eye caught someone walking on the sideway in front of our house. I Looked closer. Jax? No, why would he be walking. But the shadow is almost as tall as him. I stared at him. But then he walked up to our house. It was to dark to see his face, but he was staring in my direction. "Paul?" I yelled no answer. 

"Paul? are your friend coming over or something?" I yelled again. No answer. I could see the shadow more clearly and that's when I recognised him. My pulse raised immediately when I saw the smile on his lips. A cold shiver crawled up my spine and I turned around to lock the front door. "Dad?!" I yelled as I ran to the door. "Paul?!" I was two seconds before him to touch the door. Its locked! "Jack go away!" I yelled and wiped away my tears from my cheeks. "Open the door!" He yelled from the other side and banged with his hand on the door. 

"No! Go away!" I yelled back, I don't want to see him, I cant even think of him without wanting to  throw up, and now he's standing outside my front door! 

"I can hear you crying, Ashely! I know you're there!" He yelled. "I'll call the cops!" I yelled and I could hear him laugh. "I didn't want to do what I did! Okay! But I needed to! It was a message for Jax and you're the only way for me to hurt him!" He yelled and I cried out again. "Paul!" I yelled crying. I stood up on my way to run to Paul's room when he opened his bedroom door and pulled out his earphones. "What?" He asked but when he saw my face he turned serious. 

"Who's outside?" He asked and I wiped my tears away. "Jack" I mumbled and my voice cracked. He walked over to the door and opened it. Even before I got the chance to even blink Paul grabbed Jack by the collar and pushed him up against the wall. "Oh look who we have here, isn't it the big brother..." Jack said and smiled. "Leave her the fuck alone" Paul hissed. "Wanna know why I'm here?" Jack asked and grinned a big awful grin. "I came here to tell her that her about her 'boyfriend' Jax" Jack turned his head to me. "What about him!?" I asked and Paul pushed him harder up against the wall. "Fucking answer her!" He yelled and Jack rolled his eyes. 

"He's arrested for the murder on that poor boy Alex..."