MCR x Male reader oneshots

118. Gerard Way

Blood on the Sidewalk

Angst/Comfort!
Mental health topics and mentions of substance abuse.
Decay era!

High, drunk and depressed.
Sitting around in my bunk.
The guys were out doing a show and I decided to stay behind, I wasn't feeling it today.
I never feel much to be honest.
Pain pain pain.
I wanted it to end so I drowned myself in drugs and alcohol.

I lay there, still and quiet, pill bottle in hand and head finally quiet.
No thoughts constantly kicking me.
"Gerard I'm sorry" I said to no one really, taking the last of the pills.

I closed my eyes and felt finally at peace.
Still I felt a stab of regret when I finally felt myself fade slowly.
I heard the muffled sounds of voices outside.
"Gerard" I could hardly say a thing anymore.
The heard the door open and then the voices stopped.
Then my vision faded to black.

Gerard's POV:

We came back to the bus and I opened the door.
"Gerard" I heard the weak voice of Y/N.
Then something hit the floor.
"Y/N?" I asked.
The guys stopped talking and I ran inside.
"Y/N!!"
His body was on the floor and he had an empty pill bottle in his hand.
I felt a new rush of adrenaline and panic in my body.

I fell onto my knees and started frantically shaking him.
"Get up, get up, get up, get up, get up, get up"
No response.
I dragged him outside and tried to get him to throw up.
"Please, please! PLEASE!" I screamed. "CALL 911 PLEASE!! RAY!! MIKEY!! FRANK!!"
I started crying hysterically. "Y/N!!"
"They're on their way Gerard" Ray said.
"He's still alive, his heart is beating, slowly but he's not gone" Mikey said, he was crying too.
"Gerard" Frank said, quietly, handing me a note with tears in his eyes.
I grabbed it and took in a deep breath.

I am so sorry that you're reading this.
I had no other choice but I didn't want it to end like this.
I love you, my dear beloved husband and best friend, Gerard Arthur Way.
-Y/N

I stared hopelessly into nothing, my vision blurry and ears ringing.
I held the note in my hand and heard the distant noice of the sirens.
"I-" I couldn't speak.
I started sobbing uncontrollably and just screamed.
I hit my hands against the sidewalk and screamed again.
I continued hitting the concrete until my hands started bleeding.

"Gerard!" Mikey yelled, pulling me up and held me back. "Let's go, the ambulance is here"
"Y/N-"
"They already took him in"
"My Y/N-"
"C'mon" Ray placed a hand on my back.

We were taken to the hospital and my hands were bandaged up.
"I'm sorry Mr. Way-"
"NO!!" I interrupted the nurse and ran into the room. "I'M NOT LOSING HIM!!"
"GERARD!!" Ray yelled.
I sat down next to the bed and took Y/N's hand.
"Wake up, please, I love you so incredibly much, I can't lose you"
I felt his finger twitched.
"Y/N, can you hear me?"
He coughed and I started crying in relief.
"Ge... Gerard" he said.
"Hi honey, Y/N I'm sorry I wasn't there for you"
He sat up and kissed me.
I caressed his cheek and he looked very guilty.

"Stop making that face darling" I said. "You're alive, you're okay and you're with me"
"I'm sorry" he whispered.
"No, no, no, no. It's okay, I still love you"
I kissed him again. "You're okay now"
"I love you"
"I love you too"