Billy Hargrove Imagines

Secrets pt2

Description- You're nine months pregnant and it's 4th of July 1985
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I've been having a hard time with everything that's going on, four days ago max and all of her friends showed up at my door and told me the whole situation

They haven't let me help with anything because of the baby but they have been updating me on everything

Nobody told me anything about what's going on at the mall except Steve who called me and he seemed very drunk or high I couldn't tell

When I got to there I was scared to walk inside I didn't know what I was gonna see or who I was gonna see

I stayed in the car for about fifteen minutes before I actually went inside

When I walked in I saw everyone standing at the rail and they were looking down over the edge

I walked up behind Steve and tapped on his shoulder

"(Y/n) you can't be here it's dangerous." I shook my head and looked at him

"Steve, you called me. Plus I want to know what's going on." He stepped aside and motioned towards the main floor of the mall and this huge gloopy monster towered over Billy

"What the fuck?" Seconds later it shot out at Billy and stabbed into him

"Steve do something, please." I started crying and Steve ran down the escalator

By the time he got there it was too late billy was on the floor and then the gloop thing fell to the floor

I ran down the escalator and towards Billy. As soon as I got there I got down on the floor next to him and placed my hand on his cheek

"I-I'm sorry... I want you to make sure that Keith knows that I love him and that I didn't want to leave you guys." I rolled my eyes at the stupid name. Billy really wanted to name our son after Keith Richards but I was never too sure

"Okay, I love you." Billy went to say something but when he took his breath he soon released it and never breathed in another one

I started to cry and hold tightly onto Billy. I am so angry at the world, why Billy? What did he do other than care for me and be a good boyfriend?

I started to cry more not just because of Billy but because I was in pain my lower abdomen was hurting so badly

"(Y/n), you have to get out of here the place is on fire!" I didn't want to get up I never wanted to leave

"No! I'm not leaving him!" I pressed my forehead against Billy's cold forehead, while I held my stomach

I squeezed my eyes to try and help with the pain but it have little to no effect

"(Y/n)! You have to get out of here!" I didn't want to leave I knew that if I left I'd never see Billy again, and I was scared my pain would get worse if I stood up

I knew if I didn't leave that they would just drag me out of the mall so I gave Billy one last kiss and stood up

Steve helped me up the stairs and out of the mall. He got me in his car and took me to the hospital

When we got there the told me I was in labor and I really didn't want to do this not now

I made Steve stay with me because I didn't want to do this alone especially not after what happened

I wished that I had made it through the night before I gave birth but I wasn't that lucky. My son, Keith James Hargrove was born at 11:46 P.M. on July fourth 1985

~time skip~

It's been five months since I gave birth to Keith and I'd be lying if I said it wasn't hard

I have a couple of friends that have babies also and they always talk about how they're husbands will wake up in the middle of the night to the baby crying and tell them to go back to sleep and get rest while he helps the baby, but they aren't talking in a happy way about it they are complaining! They complain how their husbands are always holding and taking care of the baby while I'm just sitting there in my head thinking about how I'd literally murder for that, I go to bed and pray that I'm just imagining things and I'll wake up to Keith on Billy's chest and they're both sleeping peacefully

Everywhere I look I think of Billy, the shower, the bed, my bedside drawer, when I look at my fucking son I think of Billy. He's got Billy's eyes, lashes, hair, lips, and attitude

When I get in the shower I forget that he's got and I'll yell for him to let him know that's where I'll be so he don't worry where I am but as soon as I get in the shower and I see that the shampoo he'd die If he doesn't have isn't in there I remember I don't have to worry about him worrying because he's not here

There's times when I'll be feeding Keith and I'll wonder how many times I'd catch Billy sneaking a peak or how many times he'd give the top of my head a kiss wile he watch me feed and nourish our son. But every single time I sit down and start feeding him nothing happens, Billy doesn't walk in and give me his little smirk, it's just me and this little baby

~time skip~
July fourth 1993

I sat on a blanket that was on the floor with Keith sitting in my lap watching fireworks

"You know, when I look at fireworks I think of your dad." Keith turned around and raised his eyebrows

"Really?!" I nodded my head at him while smiling "Why?"

"I have no idea." I smiled down at Keith who looked back up at the fireworks

"You know a lot of things remind me of your dad. Even you, you look so much like him it's insane." Keith nodded in agreement because he's seen pictures of Billy and he knows he looks like him

"You know he loved you with all of his heart?" Keith nodded his head while smiling at me

"Yes, mommy you tell me when you see me in the morning, you tell me when I go to bed. You say I love you and do does daddy. But if he loved me with all his heart then what about you? You'd have no room in his heart?" I smiled at him and tried to think of a way to explain this to him

"Your dad was never a loving person. I mean he didn't really get along with many people. That was until he met me and he got along with everyone. But when it came to us we have a special place in his heart. Think of it as a concert, it's your dads show, and everyone in the stadium are people he got along with, but me and you have the VIP seats and the backstage passes. So if me and you are VIP then he loves us the same amount and if he loves you with all of his heart than he also loves me with all of his heart." Keith nodded his head and leaned into me looking tired

"I wish he was here." I looked down at him and nodded my head

"Me too, but your daddy was in a lot of pain and now he's not, he didn't want to leave us but he had to. I know I can't tell you much now but one day I'll tell you everything." Keith smiled and it was times like this that made everything not so scary. Everyday I'm scared and trying to be a good mom while also making sure that Keith knows that I love him and so does Billy. Some days are harder than others and some moments are harder than others. But everyday I push through and try and make my son have a good life and not have to go through anything me and Billy had to go through