Oops I Forgot the Protection!

O I F T P 45

S t e p h a n i e

3 weeks ago...

(The First Pregnancy Test)

 "Stephanie, bakit hindi mo pa sabihin sa parents mo na magaling ka na?" tanong ni Doctor Jessica sa akin, alam kong natatakot siya na baka pagalitan siya ng parents ko dahil hanggang ngayon kami lang ang nakakaalam ng doctor ko.

"Hindi na kailangan, ang O.A. pa naman nilang dalawa." Sabi ko nalang at humiga na sa hospital bed.

"Ikaw bahala, basta labas na ako situation mo, ikaw ang may gawa niyan." Nakangiting sabi ni Doctor Jessica saka niya tinawag ang OB-Gyne na si Doctor Tiffany.

"Tiffany, you should accompany her, let's check if the fetus was okay." Sabi ni Jessica kay Tiffany.

Since nalaman kong magaling na ako, pabalik-balik na ako dito kasi parang buntis ako, hindi nga sila naniwala 'nung una dahil imposibleng mangyari 'yun kasi alam nilang mag-ex kami, hindi ko nalang inamin na may bet kami and it turns out to be, ugh! I got pregnant .____.

Matagal na nilang alam ang tungkol dito, for me carrying a baby, pero hindi pa nila chineck dahil delikado raw kasi may radiation ang mga gagamiting equipments at makakasama sa newly formed fetus.

And, hindi ko pa sinabi sa mga kaibigan ko ang tungkol dito even Josiah and his friends.

"So Stephanie, kailan ang last period mo?" tanong ni Tiffany, may hawak siyang ballpen at record note. Mas okay na rin ito na ako muna ang makakaalam para ma ready ko ang sarili ko kung buntis nga ako.

"Last month."

"Did you use any material? Para malaman mo kaagad na buntis ka? Or did you just undergo in a natural process?"

"Hindi pa." Kasi ayokong bumili 'nun! "Bakit?" tanong ko sa kanila.

"Here." Inabutan niya ako ng pregnancy test.

...

Pumasok ako ng comfort room, after 1 minute, I don't think I can still handle this.

"Positive." Sabi ko sa kanila nang pumasok ako ng clinic. Kumunot naman ang noo nila kaya ako na rin ang nagtaka sa inakto nila.

"Don't you think, maybe it was just a false positive pregnancy test?"

"A false one? Bakit naman? I already craved, and had a higher sense of smell? Nagsusuka na ako at di pa ko dinadalawan?" Bakit parang nalilito ako? Humiga ulit ako sa hospital bed.

Bumuntong-hininga si Tiffany saka niya hinawakan ang kamay ko.

"A false positive pregnancy test means that your pregnancy test is positive but you are NOT pregnant." Mahinahong paliwanag nito.

"Most women who have a positive pregnancy test are pregnant and only a few are not. One cause of a false positive pregnancy test is that you do not read your urine pregnancy test correctly." O-Okay?

"Pregnancy tests have certain instructions and before you make the diagnosis of a positive pregnancy test make sure that you followed all instructions. Most manufacturers suggest to read their test after 3 minutes and to NOT READ it after 10 minutes. Once you have a negative test after 3-5 minutes THROW OUT the test. Any positive test appearing only well after that time is inaccurate and cannot be considered positive."

"So, I am not pregnant?" tanong ko at parang sumikip ang dibdib ko, dahil akala ko...

"We are not sure about it, unless you will go back here after two weeks? Then lets check it again."

"No. I want to know now!"

"Calm down Stephanie."

"Masyado pang maaga. But for now, hindi ka buntis." Pagdedeklara ni Doctor Jessica

"So, should I tell your parents?" tanong ni Tiffany while holding her phone and ready to punch some numbers. Wala pang alam ang parents ko, at wala rin silang alam na may nangyari sa amin ni Josiah.

"Or Josiah then?"

"No." mahina kong sabi saka bumangon na. Napatingin sila sa akin.

"I know, hindi ka masaya Steph, but this is the truth at kailangang malaman ito ng parents mo and even Josiah cause he has a responsibility about this."

"Ako na ang magsasabi." Sabi ko at tinap nila ang balikat ko.

"I know you will, I already gave my trust to you Steph." Nakangiting sabi ni Doctora Jessica.

"You can undergo into a test again, kung gusto mo." Pahabol ni Doctora Tiffany.

After two weeks...

(The 2nd and Last Pregnancy Test)

Halo-halo ang naramdaman ko, dalawang linggo na ang nakalipas pero hindi pa rin ako dinadalawan.

Bigla akong kinabahan dahil nagdududa na rin ang mga kaibigan ko pati na rin ang mga kaibigan ni Josiah kaya nagdesisyon silang pumunta kami ng pharmacy para bumili ng pregnancy test...again!

Bwisit kasi itong si Nathan, OB pala ang mom niya and he declared that maybe I am pregnant!

Gusto kong pumunta muna sa family doctor ko, para mas maintindihan ko kung ano ang nangyayari pero hindi na pwede kasi pinilit ako na mag test na sa school namin.

Sinamahan ako nina Kelly at Sam sa Ladies' room at pumasok na nga ako ng cubicle.

I already followed the instructions of the manufacturers.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit naisip ko bigla si Josiah at Celine, sila na hindi ba? Masaya kaya siya sa babaeng 'yun?

Ang tanga mo Stephanie! Bakit mo pa pinakawalan ang ex mo na laging nasa tabi mo, pero pilit mo itong tinataboy, kaya ayan! Kasalanan mo Steph! Naghanap na siya ng iba!

Tangna! Ang tanga ko nga!

I waited for 3 minutes, then...

Nangingilid ang mga mata ko nang malaman kong negative ang result, I stayed inside for a long moment and decided to lie again.

Being a pinocchio like character is a bad idea, and maybe this was the only way to get Josiah back.

I know, I am selfish enough but who cares?!

Lumabas ako ng cubicle and then I ran off. I didn't bother to share the result with my friends, I still hope that it's not too late yet, I had my phone with a phone tracker and I went to the room where Josiah is.  There I found him with Celine, he caressed her face, I balled my fist seeing them like this.

Then I said, 'I am fvcking pregnant' for God's sake! It was a lie! A damn lie that can ruin someone's relationship! A lie that can give me benefits! A lie that can give me a happiness just to be with someone whom I treasured the most!

(End of Flashback)