Forever In My Heart

Chapter 44

⭐️“This chapter in my life is called: knowing my worth and acting accordingly. No more settling for less. I know what I deserve.”⭐️
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It's the first time I throw a trial in the trash!

It was so messed up that I daren't even give the crumbs to Mr. Diggels.

I look askance at my dustbin as if it was responsible for something.

I got back exhausted from this day's work. Not that it was physically tiring, but nervously I was on the verge of implosion!

I thought a little cooking would help take my mind off things. They say that inspiration comes in painful times.

Well with me, it's the opposite! In moments like these, I'd do better just to stay in bed eating ice-cream!

I collapse on the couch and grab my computer to take a look at my blog.

I go through my comments. A lot of people have written stuff since I last looked.

Many are worried about my silence. I find their comments cute and it warms my heart.

Sure enough, I left my blog aside, during my crazy story with the great Ryan Carter, away from real life.

Here I am now! Back again!

Except that my life seems bland and boring without him. Without the longing for his arms, his playful talk, and his intense gaze.

Like a badly seasoned dish. Like my last try, actually...

I sigh. I must absolutely get him out of my head! And even out every inch of my skin!!

Before him, I had a happy life! Ok, he gave me a taste of thrill, of intoxicating and exciting sensations!

But life is something else! We don't live permanently in passion and disputes!

Nobody could bear it!

I couldn't stand it! I'd end up going mad. And honestly, psychiatric hospitals in New York are not all the thrill.

Ok, I'm exaggerating a bit.

At least reading the encouragement and the little love messages from my community makes me feel much better.

It's crazy, I don't know any of them in reality, and yet their presence reassures me and is essential to my well-being.

Suddenly I block on a comment and my brief respite stops dead.

The message was sent a few hours ago. Message from Persephone: "You've been warned..."

What?!

Ok. I'm not going to panic because of a nutcase who's decided to do my head in on a cooking blog.

Some people, honestly?

I get up and I pace. Think, Lexi, think...

Persephone is clearly referring to my relationship with Carter. Anyway, it's all he ever refers to!

Mr. Diggels looks up and watches me moving about in the living room.

Who could be hiding behind this pseudonym?

Jake knows about my relationship with Carter... He even warned me.

Yet I can't see him playing this childish game. And then, he's the kind of person to say things to your face, not from behind a screen.

I put my hands on my hips and keep thinking about the list of potential suspects.

Jenny is aware of my relationship with Ryan and she knows about my blog. She was also very clear on what she thought about my relationship with her brother.