At least i'm trying- Taylor Swift story

05

09.16.2023
Saturday

Alexa's pov

Taylor showed me her guitar that she had at Scott's house and played me some songs for a while as i tried not to freak out about practically getting a private Taylor Swift concert.

Then we started talking about our lives, both of us asked some general get to know one-other questions for a while, and i started telling her about mine and Tina's friendship and about how we met.

"In poland the whole class has all the lessons together since the beginning of high school, but halfway through the 9th grade my class had to switch to online lessons because of the pandemic." i started.

"But I was pretty antisocial back then so when physically going to school, i sat in the back row, so i could have some peace" i continued.

"Then on the first day of the 10th grade me and Tina randomly ended up talking to each other for a few minutes and since then we just clicked and stayed together through thick and thin. When we asked each other about our first impressions that we had before getting to know each other, she said that she thought i was a bitch" i finished as i started laughing.

"Wait, so before you actually started talking to each other, your BEST friend thought that you were a bitch?" Tay asked while she also started laughing.

"Yeah, she said that i looked like i wanted, and i quote 'for everyone to leave me the fuck alone'. I can't really blame her tho because that is what i wanted, plus i was always dressed in all black and on my phone whenever i didn't have to pay attention to something " i said as i continued to laugh.

"That's an amazing beginning of a friendship though" Tay responded.

"Yeah, she's my person." i said smiling.

"I have the same kind of relationship with Selena" she said.

I smiled while covering my face with both of my hands in embarrassment as Taylor laughed at my reaction.

——————————————————————

After about two hours of talking, me and Taylor joined the others in the living room. Everyone but my mother and Andrea was there.

It was beginning to get dark outside, but none of us had anything to do tomorrow, so that wasn't a problem.

After about 15 minutes of me and Tay being in the living room, our mother's came in and said that the food's ready. It's been about 3,5 hours since we finished eating dinner.

Why do people have to eat this often?

As everyone sat down in the dining room, tay gave me a sad, understanding smile.

The table was filled with ingredients for sandwiches like bread, cheese, ham and some other toppings, but i was thankful to see a bowl with fruit.

Knowing that i won't get away with skipping this meal, i grabbed a pear and carefully cut it into small cubes on my plate, and put some honey on the side so i can dip them in it.

My family wasn't surprised, because they often see me eating this, but i saw Andrea giving Taylor a slightly worried, questioning look. Taylor shook her head slightly, telling her mom that it's fine. I was grateful for that, because i don't think i'd be able to handle any more food than what i already got for myself. This was already a pretty large pear, so it's probably going to be a struggle anyway.

——————————————————————

For a while, i was okay with eating it and kept myself distracted by listening to the conversations around the table, but when around a half of my plate was gone, i started struggling. Taylor must've noticed, because she grabbed my hand under the table and squeezed it three times, letting me know that she's there for me.

I managed to win this one battle with my brain and finished eating the pear. Taylor never let go of, my hand, which was a nice feeling that i've never felt before, because no one's ever been willing to support me like this before.

It's a good thing that i'm able to use a fork with my left hand though, because this wouldn't work otherwise.

——————————————————————

After everyone was done eating, we all moved back into the living room and engaged in a conversation so we all could get to know some stuff about one another.

It was pretty fun and i was thankful for the distraction from the calculator inside of my brain. Taylor made sure to stay close to me for the whole time, which i loved, both because she's one of my role models and because i didn't feel alone.

When we were leaving, Taylor gave me a long, tight hug and reminded me that she's there for me whenever, and made me promise that i will reach out to her if i need anything.

For once i fell asleep smiling.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Let me know if you have any suggestions!

Thanks for reading this chaotically written story :)