• Winter Widow • 1

'Chapter 56'

I could feel my leg burning and I bit my lip to somewhat mask the pain but to no avail. I must of passed out but I was still strapped to the chair stuck in the room. I looked up to see the room was almost pitch black. The door in front of me opened and I saw a man wearing white holding bag scurried into the room towards me. Fear overwhelmed me as He soon followed, holding the doctor at gunpoint.

The doctor knelt in front of me and got to work, cleaning the wound making me bite the insides of my cheeks leaving the taste of rotten metal in my mouth. Dreyven starred at me, no emotion or anything a human would have inside of him. The doctor's hands were all over my leg, cleaning and bandaging the gun shot as the threat of dying loomed over him.

"We're moving today, I doubt your little friends would find us there if they haven't found us yet. I would of already said goodbye to any thoughts of them saving you by now." He threatened, my stomach twisted into knots.

"You know I'm right don't you, deep down you know my words have some truth to them." He words thick, seeping into me as my eyes unfocused and I starred off into space.

"I'm sure you know." He dropped the gun to his side and the doctor scrambled to grab something from his bag, a syringe.

I felt my body get scared, my insides churning. The doctor stood up and walked towards me and I knew that I had to wriggle room to struggle. He pushed my head to the side and injected the serum into my neck. My eyes starring at him as he smiled.

'Twisted fucker,' I thought.

"We are going home Lily, you lost." His voice became a loud echo that spread throughout the room.

'You Lost,' his words echoing repeated in my mind as my eyes became too heavy to lift and they shut.

I don't want to go home, I don't want to go home, I don't want to go home, I don't want to go home, I don't want to go home, I don't want to go home, I don't want to go home, I don't want to go home, I don't want to go home.

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(unknown days later,)

My stomach felt like it was eating itself. I groaned, peeling myself off the ice concrete floor. My whole body was aching. I looked around and froze, the concrete from the floor stretched up onto the ways and to the ceiling. I was in a concrete box with a huge metal door in front of me. The dimly lit light flicker every noun again and I sighed and crawled to the corner of the room.

The site of claw marks and scratches on the walls made me shiver.

My head poked up at the sound of footsteps, the sound of it echoing around a hallway. My back was straight against the concrete wall as the metal door swung open. My eyes filled with horror as he was standing at the door smiling, he pointed at me and immediately two guards can into my cell.

There was no point in struggling, they grabbed my arms and held me so my feet were being dragged across the floor.

"Today's the day of change Lily, today we start the project. I'm excited but I don't know if you will be once you understand the steps." He explained, I let my head drop i had no motivation to keep it up. He shoved open a door and immediately I knew we were moving into a larger space, I turned my eyes up and saw the room around me.

A large electric looking chair in the middle with computers all around was set up in the middle. The room was slightly destroyed, there was hole sun the wall were an icy cold breeze found it's way inside and there were broken barriers and concrete everywhere.

They shoved me into the chair and started locking me in, what was this thing going to do to me? I thought, Hurt me? Make me Stronger? Destroy me?

The arm straps were too tight. The metal band around my waist was digging into me. My mask I was sure had made an ident in my skin.

"Step one." He stood in front of me.
"We clean the slate, or the memory of it." he mumbled the last part but I still heard it. I stared up at him.

"You heard me," He smirked, he walked over and whispered something to the doctor.

He walked over to me and looked down at me. His hand reached out to me and I flinched back but his hand went to my check where the mask was.

"You won't be needing this," he whispered, his breath making me flinch even further away. He undid the mask and I felt it peel away from my skin.

"She's ready to be prepped." He nodded the doctors came up to me, checking the restraints and I felt my breath began to quicken, what were they doing to me. I felt the machine spark to life and already it was humming.

"Open." I starred up at the doctor in front of me that ordered me with a stern voice. He didn't have much patience as he instantly grabbed my jaw and forced it open putting a gag into my mouth and forcing my mouth shut.

It tasted like moldy rubber and made me gag but I couldn't spit it out.

"Goodbye Lillianna," He stood in front of me and waved. I felt tears start to fill my eyes, I couldn't catch my breath as the machine stared up.

The chair moved and I felt the metal behind me churn to life.

The metal gripped my face and I screamed, shocks of electricity was shot through me, I could feel it buzzing through me.

It made my mind fuzzy and I couldn't see straight, my whole body was shaking and I couldn't catch a break.

My screams never stopped, I knew there was no point but I couldn't stop. It hurt, it was torture. That's when images of Bucky flashed into my mind.

I was doing this for him, for him to be okay and for him to be safe and keep on living, a sacrifice I would make for him.

For him.

I starred out my eyes growing more fuzzy and it was a struggle to put keep my eyes open. I felt heat rush to my head and immediately I was plunged into darkness.

'Maybe this is,' I thought. 'Maybe this will be the day that darkness fully drags me down.

I felt that I was being watched by the darkness of my mind. I screamed into the darkness.

"I'm sorry Bucky, I'm sorry." My sobs were frantic as I searched around the void. I collected myself before standing as straight as I could manage

"Take me, I'm ready." I screamed into the void of nothingness.