Villaverde Brothers Series 2: Jilting the Fearless✓

Chapter Thirty-eight

I took the board exam and while waiting for the result, Jai and I are planning for our wedding.

Matapos malaman ng mga kaibigan ko na naga-propose na sa akin si Jai, they were the happiest pero of course, hindi nakatakas ang pagrereklamo ni Mil na talo na naman siya sa pustahan. Lagi na lang si Raya ang nananalo and I'm starting to think that she has visions of the future. Ang galing kasing manghula.

We were having a girls bond at Cai and Mil's house, or more on I'm telling Mil what I want as a design on my wedding dress. Si Mil ang gusto kong gumawa ng wedding gown ko and I want it to be so special dahil minsan lang ako ikakasal. I want it to look elegant. I trust my best friend's hand kaya kahit nagreklamo pa siya sa intricate designs na sinasabi ko, eh gagawin pa rin naman niya.

My wedding excites me, but it also makes me feel sad. I don't have a father to walk me in the aisle. There are some times that I will think of him. Kung kumusta na kaya siya. Hindi pa naman gano'n katigas ang puso ko para tuluyan siyang makalimutan.

It was hard to forgive but if I won't, it is a heavy burden that I will carry until my last breath. Mahirap pero sa tingin ko ay kaya ko naman na siyang makita. Gusto ko rin siyang makausap.

I also learned to forgive my mom dahil pinapakita niya namag gusto niya talagang makabawi. I just told her not to repeat the same mistakes again and I hope she learned from it.

Jai knew everything that I had to go through while he's away and he's deeply sorry for it kahit na wala naman talaga siyang kasalanan. Sana raw ay nandito siya no'ng mga panahon na nahihirapan ako, but I needed to endure it in order to survive.

Hindi ako sumuko at mas pinatatag ako ng panahon.

"Flower girl ba ako?" tanong ni Raya.

Naalis ko ang tingin sa twist cushion cut moissanite diamond ring ko at napalingon sa kaniya. Natatawa niya naman akong tiningnan.

"Pangaya ka ba? Por que ikakasal ka na rin? Hmp!" angil niya.

"Edi pakasal na rin kayo ni Zai. Ang tagal n'yo nang engage!" asik ko.

Inirapan niya lang ako. "Pangit talaga ng humor mo kahit kailan. Kahit yata kilitiin ako hindi ako matatawa eh!"

"Pasmado talaga bunganga mo 'no?"

"Ano ba? Ingay-ingay n'yong dalawa! Hindi ko matapos-tapos 'tong ginagawa ko!" reklamo bigla ni Mil.

I zipped my mouth. Ini-sketch niya pala ang wedding gown ko kaya kailangan kong manahimik kung gusto ko pang gawin niya 'yon.

"But on a serious note, I am very happy for you, Ky. Finally naman, after ng ilang taon n'yong ewan na label, ikakasal na kayo," sabi ni Raya saka ngumiti. "Biruin n'yo, wala nang girlfriend or boyfriend stage, engaged agad!"

"Gano'n siya kasigurado sa akin, Rai. Ikaw kasi ang hirap seryosohin kasi mukha kang gago," banat ko.

S'yempre bilang pinanganak na maldita, sinamaan niya agad ako ng tingin. I just laughed at her. I honestly want her to be happy. I want her to feel what true love feels like. Gusto kong maranasan niyang mahalin nang hindi na siya nakakaramdam ng kung ano mang takot na baka masaktan lang siya sa huli.

I want her to realize that love isn't all about what she thinks it all brings. Na hindi lang puro sakit ang idudulot nito, that love can save her from the cruelty of the world like Jai made me feel.

Mabuti na lang pala hindi sila nagkatuluyan dalawa kundi wala akong Jairus Mikael ngayon.

"Excuse me, can I have a time with my princess?" Jai suddenly came in.

Both Mil and Raya threw a disgruntled look at him which made him raise both of his hands on the air. I laughed heartily while standing up to attend at him. Pinulupot ko agad ang kamay ko sa kaniyang braso.