Was I too selfish? When I wrote all that in the last page.. Was it selfish of me? I didn't mean to make it SOUND like I hated her, I don't. I love her like a sister, she means a lot to me. I would never give up on her, no matter how many times it stresses me out how she worries me. I love my best friend more than my entire family. I always wanted to help her more than my family. She's MY sister, even without having to be blood related.. Did I seem selfish by saying all that I did in the last page? I didn't mean to. I WANT to deal with her. I WANT to be with her, no matter what. But now.. I don't know if she'll let me.
Past recent days, she hasn't been messaging me. She can see them, I see that 'seen' in one of our apps. So why won't she say anything? Does she not have anything to say? I don't care if it's a dry response, please.. I want her to say something. Anything. Something to reassure me she still wants to be with me. A short response, a long response, a dry one.. even an insult would be very pleasing to me. I just want her to say something to me. Something to give me reason that she still is my friend, my sister.. Did I say too much in these pages? Should I have kept shut about it? It's not like people actually know who we are!.. right?? I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, please. Talk to me again. I don't want to lose her. I don't want her to think I'm somebody she hates, someone she should turn the other way too.. please.. I'm trying my best. I'm trying to help you, even if I'm completely useless, please. Say something. I'm getting worried.
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Will that only make you want to avoid me more? The fact I'm so worried? I've been holding back to absolutely spam everything she has, I don't want to annoy her. But at the same time.. if it's an annoyed response, that's better than nothing, right?
I just want her to talk with me. Talk to me. ME. And I'm willing to beg for it. I'm willing to do anything for her to talk to me again. Please.. respond. Respond to anything. I just want to make sure you are okay.
