Harmony in Chaos

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We were faithful friends,
Ever so keenly gay,
You would hold me tight,
As though you were afraid I'd fray.
I would look into your eyes,
Like they were pleasant pools of glee,
And you would love me bright,
And block the bad things I'd see.
So I had faith in you,
The kind that only devotees would know,
And you had the same in me,
The kind only a deer as a lion's best friend would know.
So when I'd heard you were blue,
I only cried with you,
So when I'd hear you left,
I only saw and stared.
Because I knew you'd come,
And you never did fail me that way,
So I waited and waited,
Until all the colours turned grey.
But I knew you'd come,
So I called a zillion numbers,
But since you were not there to protect me,
I shivered through all the thunders.
So I built myself a house,
Because my previous one became a battlefield,
So I stitched myself some blankets,
Since the agony wouldn't stop biting at my feet.
So I wandered in my mind,
Thinking of all the times we'd planned,
And smiling, I talked to myself about,
The things we'd do when you came back.
Because I knew you'd come back,
And you never did fail me that way,
So I waited and waited,
Until all my thoughts started to bray.
So I sat on the front steps,
And I smiled thinking of you,
And wondered whose blood it was,
That tainted the morning dew.
So weeks passed and days spun slow,
Your memories would often keep my heart afloat,
So fresh, so sweet, so bittersweet,
Until tears of joy turned to tears of sorrow.
So I heard a knock and I heard my name,
I ran to the front and opened the gate,
There you were, standing in tattered clothes,
A knife by your side, different bloods on your bones.
You smiled at me that bloody grin was etched in my memory,
So uninhibited, you stepped inside,
And I, so shaken, just stood and stared,
At the mad glint that glimmered in your eyes.
I was fine, where I was then,
All that I had was all that I'd needed,
But you were empty and cracked,
And they always said that you lacked.
So you went far away,
The cracks became models of decay,
Your body became a rotten graveyard,
But there, your soul couldn't stay.
So those worms crawled into you,
And turned you shrewd,
And then you became someone,
That I couldn't recognize, you turned crude.
My bones shook, I stared up at you,
You laughed and you rejoiced,
But then I saw, all the blood you shed,
The people you tortured, their voices.
You barged in, you sat down,
And I wondered, where are you?
That betraying tear fell down my eyelashes,
I wondered what you had done to you.
Where was my protection? Where was my brother?
Where were the arms that I played in?
He was right there, looking at me,
With a crazy smile plastered, a look so horrifying.
So when you left again, I didn't wait,
So when you didn't look back I didn't pray,
So when you walked off I didn't cry,
And when you completely disappeared my throat went dry.
Now I saw the bad things, there was no one to block them,
Now I was set loose and free, there was no one to hold me tight,
So now I looked into my own empty eyes,
So now I'd lost faith, and I was out of your sight and mind.
But you didn't know, that I was always at my gate,
You didn't know, that I would always be there,
You didn't know, that I didn't love neither hate,
You didn't even know of the things, that for you I would bear.
You left happy, left me behind to crumble,
But I only stayed, because I knew you'd come back to me,
Except that this time I didn't wait, only heard painful screams,
So I would shut my eyes and ears, but still I'd have to hear or see.
I stayed because we knew that I would always be there for you,
I stayed because there were still the cracks in you that I couldn't join,
I stayed right there because I knew it wasn't your fault,
But I'd only wished you would've let me help, before the worms crawled in through your walls.
So I heard you scream,
Right the day your soul left you,
"Why didn't you leave!?"
So to show you, I left my soul too, and again came with you.