Bounded by the red strings of love

I am broken

I was floating in the dark, no light around me only darkness everywhere, I knew nothing for I felt empty, no name, no past, no friends nothing but a empty shell of a body with no life or soul of there own. Sometimes I could hear voices around me, but when I turn to see where it came from it stopped making me look straight into the darkness where only myself was in right now, I wanted to be with someone right now anyone would do for as long as they can help me remember something about who I am right now. It was so quiet here that not even my voice came out of my mouth making me believe that I was mute for my whole life making me give up on it and with no sounds around me I thought that there were sounds only I was deft and maybe blind since there was only darkness really so I just never thought more about it, sometimes I would feel like my body was touching something but nothing else really making me feel like there was something i'm forgetting or missing from all of this right now.

At times I would for some reason think of something and all of a sudden a sharp pain came to my skull making me feel the need to scream from it but nothing came out of my voice making me give up talking or even think right now, but at one time I did think I saw a faint blue light not too far from me and one purple light before they vanished making me forget about them as they didn't do anything to help me right now to know more about who I was really so I simply moved on from it without much of a care. It didn't really matter anyway since I might never remember who I was or anything really so why bother? I mean if I don't know who I was or anything from just two lights or the pain I gain when I think shouldn't I have remembered by now everything? since they were maybe there for a short time before vanishing into the darkness so I guess it didn't matter at all really so I just stopped thinking about them and moved on.

"Jasmine" I heard a voice say to me as a spark of red light floated near me, I went to touch it but it spoke once again "Jas. Remember me" it said in a male voice was that my name? Jasmine was who I was and yet that voice, even if I just heard it I feel like I know who it was "It's me Raphael or Raph, I came to your world one night and you found me, you took care of me for 5 years and dated since then, you came to my world and I proposed to you" he then said to me. He kept going as images came around me, covering the darkness, were those my memories with him? But then they all vanished and so did Raph's voice making me see darkness yet again "Jas! Don't listen to him! You saved my brother Donnie!" another voice spoke to me.

This voice sounded also like I knew it and yet nothing came to me "I'm Michelangelo or Mikey, you always were nice to me and cared for me when ever I was scared since you even came to sleep in my room when you usually were with Donnie just to keep me safe from nightmares" he explained as the images he was talking about came to me, I was amazed at how nice I was with him as an orange light came close to me, keeping me warm Mikey kept talking to me about all of this as the orange light took the form of a turtle with an orange mask, some elbow and knee pads, a belt, wraps on his hands and feet and some kind of weapon in his belt.

He was kind to me and was using a sweet tone for me as he spoke while his bright blue eyes kept looking at me as he said more stories to me about who I was with him making me smile more at the memories coming around me, I never felt something like this with anyone but then another light but this time blue came over "I am Leonardo or Leo for short" it spoke to me this time it was soothing to me "You and I don't bond much but we do connect in other ways then the others making you always talk to me for almost everything" he said as he spoke making a memory come over to me.

He kept speaking to me with such kindness in his voice that I felt like something was under me for he spoke about people I meet making me see other kinds of lights around me making me smile at the sight of them right now, he kept talking until the blue light became a turtle like Mikey but with a blue mask and straps over his right shoulder where behind him were two swords making me smile at his ocean blue eyes as they were calming to me right now.

Another light but brown came saying his name was Splinter making it become some huge rat wearing a kimono and he spoke about each of his sons and friends and what he could remember about me from our most recent encounters making me relax some more then I was before about all of this right now because he was so calming to me right now. Many memories swam around me but the feeling of something missing kept coming over me right now as I felt like there was still somethings missing inside of me right now making me feel awful about it right now and I just wanted to remember everything right now about all of this but still nothing came to me making me want to cry about it all right now.

But then the red light came back and the strong feeling of fear came over me making the light start to dim out "NO! Please just let me talk to you" Raph said making me still not want him here because of the lies he did to me as he hen sigh "I was in love with you about a little after meeting you, I wanted to be with you instead of you being with Don. But I guess I did this all on jealousy making me blind of how you would feel about all of this later on" he explained making me listen to him very carefully to what he was telling me right now. He became a turtle with a red mask, a bolt shape like scar on his plastron and what looked like to be forks? in his belt, but he kept talking to me about many things I do with him making me even though scared of him I felt like he was there to protect me at any moment right now because of what he said he does for me, I still wanted to know more about who I was but everything they said about me wasn't enough for me to know who I truly was making me feel scared that I just might never remember.

"Jasmine" it was then that another voice came over to me as a purple light appeared making me feel this trustful feeling from it this time like I knew who this was and could trust them with my life right now "Jas, please remember it's me Donatello but also get called Don or Donnie" he then said making my eyes widen as many things started to click into my mind from everything. My name is Jasmine Lessard, i'm dating Donatello Hamato and soon would become his wife, he has three brothers a father, two human friends and a bunch of mutant friends as all of my family memories came back to me so did my voice, my hearing and my sight and then I saw everything around me was still dark.

Because I kept my eyes closed right now.

Hey everyone! I hope you all liked the chapter of my mind because this is the only one sadly since making more of these would take forever so might as well only put in a chapter like that and then snap out of it right?

PAL out!