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Jealous/Best Friend/Party - Calum Hood

Music thumps around us, covering up how loud my heart is beating. [Y/N] is dancing close to me and I've never felt more alive, but it's not doing anything for my self control. Every time she presses her body to mine or says something in my ear I want to kiss her roughly until she understands how much I love her. But I can't do that - she's my best friend. Plus, she came to this party to find a one night hookup - and I really don't want to be that. I want her for more than just one night - I want her forever.

I don't want to breakaway from her, but my bladder is about to burst so I have to. It'll only be a couple of minutes, and it's better than wetting myself just so I can keep an eye on her.

I wouldn't be so bad if she didn't look quite so beautiful tonight. She's made an extra effort, but she really didn't have to. She always looks beautiful - she could have any guy she wants.

Elbowing my way through people, I try to make it back to where I was dancing with [Y/N]. My jaw automatically clenches when I see her dancing with another guy, looking like she's having the time of her life. He has his hands all over her and she doesn't even mind. It makes me furious.

Not able to watch the scene for any longer, I push my way to the bar and order a drink, but I still can't get the picture of her with that idiot out of my head. The barmaid shoves a beer in front of me and I immediately take a few swigs, hoping the alcohol will take my mind off of [Y/N].

No such luck.

My blood is boiling in anger and jealousy, but there's little I can do about it but try to calm down. It's hurts every time this happens - every time I see her with another guy. She's no stranger to male attention, given that she's basically perfect, which makes my life impossible.

My fingers are twitching, the same way they always when I know she's with a guy. It takes all my effort not to punch whoever it is she's with, so I just have to deal with my fingers convulsing in anger.

"Calum!" [Y/N] yells over the loud music, startling me a little. I turn round to find her looking confused and slightly pissed off. "You said you would only be a minute!"

I'm not sure what to tell her. I can't give her the real reason I couldn't go back to her, so I just shrug and take another sip of my beer. That seems to upset her, which makes me feel like an asshole.

"I'm sorry, okay? You just looked like you were having enough fun without me."

She looks less angry and more confused now, like she has no idea what I'm talking about.

"I came back but you were busy dancing with some guy so I came here instead."

Her eyebrows furrow forward in a concerned frown and she takes a step towards me. I'm glad the music is so loud or I'm sure she'd be able to hear my heart beating.

"Cal," she begins, but I really don't want to hear what she has to say. It's probably just going to upset me.

"I need some air," I state, and storm off in the opposite direction.

There's a light breeze outside, which I am thankful for. It soothes the jealousy and anger that's scorching through my veins, dimming it down to a simmer. There's a few people milling around outside, but they all look too drunk to care about me.

I turn to walk away from the building, heading to the Main Street. There'll be taxis there, so I can go home. I'm done with tonight.

"Calum!" [Y/N] yells from behind me, stopping me in my tracks. I don't turn around, but I hear her light footsteps rushing towards me. When she's close enough she tugs on my shoulder, turning me around so that I'm facing her. She's standing close, which just adds some nerves to the mixture of emotions that I'm currently feeling.

"Where are you going?" She breathes, slightly out of breath.

"To get a taxi." I answer, not allowing any emotion into my voice.

Her face crumples like she's about to cry, but she quickly straightens it back out, pursing her lips and narrowing her eyes. Still, I can see that I've upset her, and it kills me. That wasn't my intention, I just couldn't stand seeing her with that guy. I didn't realise she'd be upset about me leaving.

"I'm sorry, I just... I dunno." I sigh, hoping she'll understand.

Her jaw clenches and suddenly she looks more angry than upset. "Why are you doing this?" She snaps, crossing her arms over her chest.

Maybe I should tell her. I wouldn't even know where to begin.

When I don't reply her eyes become steely. "Calum!" She yells, but before she can give me a guilt trip I start speaking.

"Because I'm in love with you, [Y/N]!" I shout, startling her. The words slip out easily, and while a weight has been lifted from my shoulders I also feel the awful unease that comes from letting your biggest secret out to the wrong person.
"I'm in love with you and you can't even see it!" I continue, my voice more hushed this time. "So I can't stay in there watching you with another guy because it hurts too damn much, okay?"

It was easier to tell her than I thought it would've been, but my hands are still shaking with nerves while I wait for her to speak.

But, instead of speaking, she does something else.

She kisses me.

Our lips move quickly and desperately against each other, like we're trying to tell each other something just through the kiss. It's intense and amazing and everything I have ever wanted.

"I want to be with you," she mumbles after she's pulled away. "I just want you, Calum. That's all I've ever wanted. Just you."

Her breath is hot on my lips, and I can't resist stealing another kiss. My heart is pounding, but I know [Y/N]'s is too.

"You've always had me, [Y/N]." I whisper, and she grins.

"Calum," she says softly, "it's you that's always had me. I'm yours, okay?"

I nod and release a shaky, relieved laugh. "Okay," I mumble, "okay."

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