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Afraid - Michael Clifford - P2

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[Y/N] sits up suddenly, so without thinking about it I copy her. She laughs instantly, finding my actions amusing.
"What's up?" I ask her, trying to distract her from my blush. She smiles and shakes her head. "Nothing, I just had an idea."
I nod my head towards her and raise my eyebrows, indicating for her to elaborate.
"We haven't been to that new diner yet. You know, the one that opened up last week? We should go tonight, just us two."
We go for food together all the time, but somehow this feels different.
"Yeah," I choke, barely able to control my erratic breathing, "that would be great." My heart is going so quickly.
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[Y/N] looks as gorgeous as always. It's difficult to take my eyes off her, even as we're just walking down the street. I want to make sure that I have her entirety committed to memory. I want every smile, every micro expression, every single last emotion she shows permanently imprinted in my mind. Only knowing half of her isn't enough, and even though I'm closer to her than most, I still don't feel like I know all of her.
Without thinking about it, [Y/N] grabs my hand and intertwines our fingers. It's a tiny act of friendship to her - it means nothing. But to me it means everything. I pray that my palms don't begin to sweat with nerves - though I wouldn't be surprised considering my luck.

I slide into a booth in the diner, and wait for [Y/N] to sit opposite me. But, because she never does what I'm expecting, she sits down next to me. She's a complete mystery to me sometimes, and I don't think I'll ever be able to figure her out. I need to learn that she's never going to do what I assume - she will always take the more interesting path or the unanticipated one. She enjoys being an enigma - she likes that nobody is able to guess her next move. She's completely unpredictable.
There's no gap between us, and it's driving me crazy. It's making my heart pound and my throat go dry: I can barely handle it. Being this close to her sends my emotions into overdrive.
"Hey, Michael?" She asks after a few moments, lifting her head from the menu.
"Hmm?"
Just as she's about to speak a waitress comes over to take our order. As [Y/N] recites what she wants, I notice the fear and nerves in her eyes. She has something important to tell me, I can see it. I don't like seeing those emotions in her - it worries me and instantly makes me want to take her pain away. Something as beautiful as her shouldn't have to feel pain.
"W-what's up?" I stutter after the waitress leaves, pushing her to tell me the problem.
She draws her bottom lip between her teeth, and my attention is pulled to her lips. They're so inviting and i desperately want to know what they taste like.
"I- uh, I have a confession to make," she mumbles, redness rising in her cheeks.
"Go on," I breathe, not trusting myself to speak any louder.
My heart lurches forward the second [Y/N]'s lips touch mine, and I'm lost in the moment immediately. For once, my mind is completely still, and I'm at peace with myself. For once, everything is completely right with the world.
"That's my confession," she whispers, drawing back. "I'm in love with you, Michael."
The words come before I'm ready to speak.
"I've been in love with you since we were kids, [Y/N]." I croak, my mouth dry. "B-but I've always been too afraid to say anything. I'm sorry i didn't have to guts to tell you, but I was so scared that I'd lose you. And spending a lifetime in pain, wishing you were mine, is better than not having you in my life at all. I love you so much, [Y/N]." I ramble, grasping her hands tightly in mine. She smiles and looks up at me with her big, beautiful eyes.
"Really?" She whispers disbelievingly. I can't believe that she can't see it. That she hasn't seen it all of these years. My feelings for her are the only things I really know for sure.
Pressing a quick kiss to her forehead, I confirm my words. "Really. Loving you is all I've ever known, [Y/N]."

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