5SOS Preferences

Shy - Ashton Irwin

C'mon, man, all you've gotta do is say the words. Tell the girl you like her. Stop being so awkward and shy about it. It's not that hard. People do it all the time. I gaze over at where [Y/N] is sitting and immediately I know I can't do it. Just looking at her makes me freak out.
Michael sits down next to me, pulling me out of my thoughts. He smirks at me and releases a low chuckle. "Ask her out, Ash. She's into you."
I shake my head. "Even if she is... I wouldn't even know how to get the words out to tell her how I feel."
Michael frowns. "You're not this shy around other girls." He mentions. I shrug. I've always been shy, but something about [Y/N] brings it out in me especially. Not in a bad way - it's just that she kind of terrifies me. She's perfect in every way - she's funny, smart, kind, beautiful... I could go on forever. But all of that stuff - it means I'm not good enough for her. And that makes me increasingly shy around her. "I know," I sigh, "it's just her."
Michael stands up and beckons for me to follow him into the kitchen. We push through all the people, and when we get there I realise he's lead me straight to the alcohol. "Do some shots with me," he say, shoving a glass my way.
"Why?" I question.
"It's not unheard of to do shots at a party, Ash."
He pours some clear liquid into my glass.
"Ready, go!"
The vodka burns my throat, my face crumpling in disgust. I open my eyes to find Michael waiting to pour me another shot. He must see my hesitation because he grins and me and says "you know you'll find it easier to talk to her with some alcohol in your system."
So I do some more shots.

Nervously, I make my way over to her.
"Hey, [Y/N]." I manage. The alcohol has helped, but I still want to run away.
"Hey, Ash!" She replies, flashing me her beautiful smile.
"Can I talk to you outside?" I wasn't going to say that. If we go outside I'll have to tell her because she'll be expecting something. I can't tell her. She'll run away from me.
"Sure," she says with a shrug, and begins to head in the direction of the door. I have to follow her - if I don't I'll just look like an idiot.

"So, what's up?" She asks, sitting down on the grass. I sit next to her and she giggles. "I don't bite!" she says, shuffling closer to me.
Our bodies are touching and my heart is racing. Fuck.
My hands are shaking, so I tuck them under my knees. If my whole body starts to freak out in the same way maybe I can just blame it on the cold.
"I... you..." I say, trying desperately to force my words out. Just tell her you like her, Ashton.
"Can I interrupt for a second?" She asks, and I nod enthusiastically.
And then she's kissing me.
My mind whirls and flies and goes completely mad. This is surreal and magic and intense and perfect. I never want it to end.
When it does end, her eyes meet mine. "Mike told me that you were too shy to tell me how you felt, so I thought I'd help you." She whispers.
"I think you're amazing." I blurt, and she giggles. "Seriously, I think you're great, [Y/N]. You're the best person that I know and you make my heart race whenever I see you. I am so into you. Please let me take you on a date."
I'm proud of myself for managing all that. Now I'm just hoping she says yes.
She leans forward and kisses me gently. "Of course you can, Ashton."

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