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It Was A One Night Stand 'Til I Woke Up Next To You - Luke Hemmings

💓40 votes = immediate update!💓

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The couch dips next to me and Ashton's laughter rings in my ears. "You know," he muses, pulling my attention to him, "if you keep watching the door it's never gonna open."
I sigh impatiently. "Why isn't she here yet?"
"I don't know," Ashton shrugs, "maybe she's running late, or maybe she decided not to come. Just try to enjoy the party, Luke."

I sit with my eyes on the door for another half an hour before I frustratedly drag myself to the kitchen to get a drink. Ashton's in there taking shots with a group of people, and he sees me almost immediately. "Luke!" He yells, beckoning me over. The second I'm close enough he thrusts a shot glass into my hand. The group starts counting down, and instead on thinking about it I just throw the liquid to the back of my throat, the familiar burn comforting me. I join them for a few more until I decide to go and find someone to hook up with for the night. I need to take my mind off of [Y/N] or I'm going to go crazy.
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Nothing is working. It's been nearly two hours and I still can't stop thinking about her. I've even been making out with this girl - but it's not working. I can't say I'm surprised - it rarely works. I do shit like this on a regular basis, and at best it only takes my mind off her for an hour. It's typical that the one girl I'm too afraid to ask out is the one girl i really want. But I'm so terrified of being rejected by her, and if I lost her I don't know what I would do. We've been friends for such a long time, and if she wasn't in my life then there'd be a gaping hole that nobody else could fill. I couldn't survive losing her.
I excuse myself from the girl and stumble off to the kitchen in hopes of getting another drink.
"Hey Luke," someone says from behind me. My heart starts to race - I would know that voice anywhere. I turn to her and instantly my body is overcome with desire for her. She is so beautiful.
"[Y/N]," I breathe, trying hard to control my emotions. She gives me a small smile, but I can tell she's upset about something.
"What's the matter?" I ask her, taking a step towards her and instinctively pulling her closer to me. She looks up at me with her gorgeous eyes and my heart melts. "Nothing," she mumbles, and, although I know she's lying, I don't press her for an answer. Instead, I just pull her into me and pray that she can't feel how fast my heart is beating.
[Y/N] looks amazing tonight. As we walk to the kitchen it's difficult to keep my eyes away from her. Suddenly, I'm conscious of how many people there are here, and how many of them probably want her. It's not my place, because she isn't my girlfriend, but the thought terrifies me. "[Y/N]," I blurt, stopping her outside the front door. "Yeah?" She replies as she turns to face me. "Do you wanna get out of here?"
For a minute she looks confused, and I'm worried that she's going to ask me to explain why I want to leave, but then she just shrugs and nods her head.
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We go back to mine, unwilling to let the night end there. I grab us a couple of bottles of beer and we move to sit in the living room.

A few more beers later and we're kissing. My mind is in overdrive and everything seems to be happening really quickly. This is probably a bad idea - considering we're both drunk and she likely just wants a hookup. But I can't stop myself, no matter how much I think it's the right thing to do. I've wanted this for so long and she finally wants me back.
The feeling is sensational. It's like nothing I've ever felt before - everything is so much more intense. But better, definitely better.
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[Y/N] shuffles in my arms, pulling me out of sleep. I take a deep breath, attempting to comprehend the events of last night. After so long of wanting her, we had slept together despite my better judgement. It had been amazing. And now, here we were, naked and entwined underneath the blanket.
"Luke?" She mumbles, startling me slightly. I thought she was asleep. I stay deadly still for a few minutes before I dare to reply.
"Hi," I breathe, unable to think of anything better. She tenses in my arms and then swiftly turns to face me, as if she's been building the courage to do it for a while.
"What... what does this mean?"
Straight to the point then. I have no idea what she wants me to say. I know what I want to say, but I'm scared she wants to hear something else. Her body sags when I don't speak. "You don't have to pretend it meant something if it didn't, Luke. I saw you kissing that girl last night, I know you just wanted a one night stand. I get it."
I shake my head quickly. I've got to just go for it - I can't keep avoiding my feelings for her for the rest of my life.
"No, you don't get it. You don't."
She looks confused, so I keep speaking.
"Last night, when you were late, I thought you weren't coming. And it upset me, because I had been looking forward to spending time with you because... because I love you. More than I probably should." I admit, taking a deep breath. "So I went to find someone to hook up with, you know, to take my mind off you. So the thing is, yeah, this would've been a hook-up. It was a one night stand 'til I woke up next to you. I woke up next to you and everything changed, okay?" My voice is shaking with nerves. "Instead of being with another unimportant girl on another unimportant night, last night was the most important night and I was with the most important girl. You're the only girl I care about. I want to spend every night with you, [Y/N], not just one. But if you don't feel the same then I understand." I ramble, my words coming out before I get chance to think then through.
Tears are glistening in her eyes and I automatically think I've upset her. I open my mouth to apologise but before I can utter my apology she presses her lips to mine, cutting me off.
"I love you," she whispers, leaving little kisses on my skin. My mind is whirling - she feels the same? This can't be possible. It's too good to be true. Maybe I'm dreaming.
"I have wanted to be with you for so long, Luke, but I've been so scared. I didn't think you felt the same. And last night, when I saw you with that girl..." her voice falters, and guilt overwhelms me. "It confirmed what I'd been thinking, and it really hurt." She continues. The sad tone in her voice is making my heart break. "B-but then you suggested we leave, and of course I wanted to. I only went to that party to see you. And then everything started moving quickly and slowly at the same time. We were kissing and it was like seeing through space and time. I didn't know how you were feeling about it but I couldn't stop. I told myself that even if it was just a one night thing then I'd have to deal with it, because having you once would be better than never having you."
[Y/N]'s words strike a chord inside me, and the sound rings through my entire body. I'm barely able to process what I'm hearing.
"It could never just be one night with you," I whisper, struggling to speak. She's taken my breath away, and made my thoughts go wild - leaving me almost speechless. "I love you, [Y/N]. I love you so much."
I kiss her again, savouring the feeling. I could kiss her all day and it still wouldn't be enough.
It feels so good to finally have her in my arms. This is right, I can feel it.

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okay, i know i probably said Calum would be next up but the 30 votes came in real quick and i had this one written already so here it is! hope y'all enjoy it, and i hope everyone is super duper happy today!

also - i'm really really sorry for upping the immediate update vote to 40 - it's just because i'm really low on motivation & enthusiasm at the moment so need an extra push!!

💓40 votes = immediate update!💓