Beca:
I had a hospital appointment this morning and I could not be bothered to go but I missed it a few weeks ago since I had drank the night before, so they changed it to today.
'Got hospital at 10 so won't be able to meet you guys until about 11-12ish, depends how long it takes x' I sent in the group chat
'Shall we all meet at the big hill at half 12? x' Jordan replied
Everyone agreed to meet at half 12. I then decided to get ready since it was now half 9 and I have only done my eyeliner! When I was finally ready it was time to leave. I was so hungry though since I didn't have time for breakfast, that is what I get for not getting up earlier!
"Beca?" We heard a doctor say
Ruby came in the room with me since I hate going in alone.
"So Beca, We think this will be your last appointment but since your usual doctor isn't here until half an hour we won't know until then. We are still going to take a blood test and also ask you and also your sister some questions" They explained
"Oh and when Dr. Smith gets here we will weigh you and then go from there"
I just nodded and let them do what they needed to do. I hated getting a blood test but if I refused they would just think I have taken something other than my medication and send me straight back.
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Finally it was nearly time to leave. Just waiting for my usual doctor to come back in.
"Okay so, I still want you to come here every few weeks Beca. You don't seem to have put on any weight since the last time and you know that is what we have asked" She told me
"I don't feel like I need to, I feel happy with myself now! You said last time that I was looking so much better and healthier so why do I need to put on any more weight!" I said, clearly annoyed
"You are looking much better but you are still a little underweight for your age and height"
"Well I am not going to put on any more weight! I don't want to" I huffed
"I get where you are coming from Beca but if you want to stop these appointments then you need to listen to what we are saying. We are only telling you what is right for you"
"No you are not fucking listening to what I am saying or what I want. You don't even know how I fucking feel when someone says to put on weight! I don't want and I won't!" I spat
"Beca you need to calm down. I know you don't want to and I know how you feel, Just listen to what we say because I promise it will help you in the long run"
"NO! It fucking won't" I shouted
I then just had enough so I stormed out, knocking everything that was on some tray everywhere. I was so pissed off! Since Chloe's house was only about a 5-10 minute walk from here I decided to go there.
"Baby, what's the matter?" She said as she opened her front door
I explained everything that they said, what I said and just what happened in general. We was currently sat outside her house on the grass.
"You are too stubborn to go along with what they say. You are looking so much better and I couldn't be more proud of how far you've come with this but you should listen to what they say. I know you don't agree and you don't want to do what they say but they are doctors, 99% right in everything they say baby" She said, kissing my head
"Well the 1% they are wrong. I am happy with my body at the moment and don't want to change that. I am in such a good place with all this and I don't want to change that by trying to put on weight. I don't think I am fat and I probably won't if I put on a little weight but it's just the simple thing of I don't want to" I explained
"If you really don't want to then I can't tell you what to do. I love you no matter what though" Chloe smiled
I thanked her and we had a quick kiss and hug. I knew I would be in trouble with Ruby for what I said and did. I am sure my Dr now hates me for swearing and messing her room up. I was angry and I just had to prove that, I always do.
"Hate to say this but Ruby's car is coming up the road" She sighed
"I love you and I will text you later. I might be out later but I don't know now" I told her
We both stood up and had a quick hug and kiss, I then headed to the car. The drive home we just spoke about random things, she doesn't seem annoyed and she hasn't said anything about it. Once we both got home we headed into the kitchen to make something to eat since we was both pretty hungry.
"I spoke to your doctor when you stormed out and she said you have to go back in 2 weeks and one that appointment is over then you won't have to go again. It took me a while to convince her that you was eating right and had no signs of going back" She told me
"So you aren't mad?" I asked
"No Bec, you was only telling her how you felt, Did you do it in the right tone? No of course not but I could see you was getting annoyed" She smiled and I thanked her
"So I was thinking we could go to Spain for our little holiday?" Ruby said
I looked at the place where she was thinking and it looked so nice! I agreed and she said that she'll book it tomorrow sometime. I couldn't wait! Once half 12 rolled around I headed out to meet everyone. It was a pretty cloudy today so I wore jeans and a jumper.
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