*warning: slight cursing*
Taehyung's POV
After what happened with Jimin, nothing felt right anymore. My mind became overwhelmed with thoughts that only managed make this whole situation worse. I began to realize how I really feel.The more I thought about it, the more it made sense to me, even if I didn't want it to. My relationship with Jimin wasn't all unicorns and rainbows, not at all. With everyone else, Jimin is kind, sweet, caring, he's admirable. I love that part about him. But for some reason, when he's alone just with me as my boyfriend, he's different.
I always feel as if I am somehow upsetting him with everything I do. He doesn't smile around me anymore like he used to, he gets angry easily, and if I'm honest, that scares me. I can't help but think that it's my fault he's become so... Temperamental lately, but I don't know how to fix it. Now... Now I don't think I can fix it.
All I wanted to do was to be alone, but with one sick twist of fate, suddenly Jungkook appeared. I really didn't want to see him, not because I don't like him, but because I think I do, and in a way that I shouldn't.
I know that something within me has been changing recently, but it isn't until today that I fully understand just what it is. I think about Jungkook so often that it gives me headaches. Whenever I'm alone, I just want him near me, I want to talk to him, I want to feel his presence. More so than my own boyfriend.
My mind had been spinning in circles, comparing and contrasting the two best friends. I just wanted to think alone, but clearly it seemed Jungkook had no intention in leaving.
I just couldn't sit still, adrenaline making me restless. A heavy sadness weighed within my chest, when the answer finally came to me. I can't deny it anymore, I like Jungkook.
I just can't imagine my life without him anymore.
Even knowing this, the fact Jungkook had kissed me still floated in my mind, and I only became more and more confused. I wanted to ask him why he did it, but by the time I opened my mouth, I couldn't close it. I rambled unintentionally, the emotion rising in my chest as I questioned Jungkook. I just want answers.
Jimin's face popped up in my mind and I sighed, everything becoming too much. Now, being as overwhelmed as I am, my stupid, naive mouth opened and spoke the last thing that I wanted anyone to hear.
"Why do I like you?"
A heavy silence blankets over us, my own voice echoing in my ears.
What did I just say?
A tight pressure constricts my chest, and I can't breathe. I close my mouth slowly, my eyes wide as the crucial meaning of what I had just said gradually sinks in. I can only stare at Jungkook, his large, somber eyes staring back at me. His lack of response unnerves me, the surprise slowly emerging in the light of his irises.
I begin to panic, understanding that this means confrontation.
Why did I say that?
Why did I have to make everything so much more complicated?
Jungkook probably doesn't even like me, and I'm currently in risk of losing my boyfriend, so why the hell did I open my mouth?
Shame washes over me, and I can practically feel my ears burning. We remain in stalemate, trying to figure each other out with simply our gazes until Jungkook's mouth opens.
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FanfictionJungkook has lived his whole life hearing people ask him why he is so emotionless. It's not really something that he can change about himself, he's just like this. His friends are accepting of him, but he has never found someone who truly understood...