Just Hold On-A Louis Tomlinson Ageplay Story

Chapter 53

Zayn's POV

About an hour or so later, I'm half watching the news when I hear cries coming from upstairs. Instantly, I shut off the TV and rush up to the spare bedroom, where I find Louis curled up on the bed, crying. I pause briefly in the doorway to take in the unusual sight. I'm not used to seeing him crying, especially so openly. When Louis sees me, he immediately calms down slightly and reaches out his arms.

He starts to whimper when I don't approach immediately, so I enter the room quickly and sit next to him, pulling him onto my lap. It was easy enough to lift him, but I get the feeling that he might want to cuddle for a bit, so it will be easier if I'm sitting.

"Hey, Lou. Did you have a good nap?" I honestly have no idea what I'm doing right now...what the hell am I supposed to do with him?

"Hmm," he hums, snuggling his face into my neck and wrapping his arms around my shoulders.

"Are you still sleepy?" I ask, making my voice a bit softer. He doesn't seem very alert yet. Maybe we'll just sit for a while? I don't know if he needs anything. No, he seems content for now, cuddling here. I guess I'll just hold him for a while. I settle more comfortably on the bed and rock the man in my arms a bit.

This is just so bizarre. When Louis first told me that the others were forcing him to act like a baby, I thought it sounded like a completely weird idea, like there was no way it would possibly help. But then the next couple of times we talked, he seemed to be doing better. And obviously right now he needs it...even if it isn't the most healthy response to stress, which I really doubt it is, it's better than some things. It would be better if he could deal with stress the way he always has, but I suppose this is an ideal situation compared to what I'd heard about earlier. Nightmares and not eating and breakdowns. I have my own experience with not eating, but I think it was different for Louis. For me it was a matter of control, a choice. For him I think it was a lack of control, something he wasn't even aware of. He missed meals because he just didn't think about it, he didn't know he was losing weight.

Okay, Zayn, stop. Let's not think about that right now. It's not a good idea.

Different thought: why did this happen today? What triggered it? I remember him talking about a specific song being a trigger. I highly doubt that's what happened today, but I recall the conversation quite clearly. He was all excited because apparently that was a big breakthrough, something about it being much better than...oh. Fear. Fear was the other thing that sometimes can cause him to go into his headspace. But would something have happened at the interview that scared him? What scares Louis? Or maybe it wasn't fear specifically...maybe it was something else? Yeah, there was another part of it, I think, a combination of fear and...what was it?

Vulnerability. A combination of fear and vulnerability. That makes a lot of sense. Interview questions often end up being a bit too personal, and I know I've always felt much too vulnerable during interviews. And if he's still somewhat tightly wound, easily upset...if the interviewer said something slightly wrong, brought up the wrong subject, it wouldn't take much for him to feel too exposed, especially because this was I think his first interview without the other lads. He didn't have anyone to deflect questions to, except Steve, but they haven't really known each other long enough for Steve to be able to answer any overly personal questions.

Okay. So, I think I know what caused this. But what am I going to do with this situation? I currently have my 25 year old former bandmate curled up on my lap and acting like a baby. I'm so lost. I don't even know how to deal with normal babies, let alone an adult who is in a young mindset.

Suddenly, Louis starts crying. Not normal, adult crying, like he's just upset about something. He's full-on wailing like a baby. Shit! What do I do? I literally have no idea what's wrong. I'm panicking a bit, I don't want him to be upset. I don't know how to take care of him when he's like this.