i find myself
stoned in a burnt down
u-haul truck
surrounded by free weed
my ex-boyfriend and
people i consider friends.
smokes past around
between boys with heavy backpacks
over filling with
mommy issues and
medication prescribed
for their parents.
and a girl who has been
labled slut 'cause she has only
dated dicks that tend
to treat her like shit.
then theres' me
with cremated memories
of past evenings
on swing sets
at eleven o'clock at night
high as a kite we let
our laughter cut
through the hollow air
of these broken towns.
lighting smokes
by one and another
after exams so stressed
sitting on the yellow building steps
blocked from the wind
its time like this
that make me think
of how addiction
made up our friendship.
that what brought
us closer together was my lack
of undetstanding what was
the matter with my life
hanging out with twenty year olds
who have mastutrbated
to me while i was sitting
in their fucking home.
i don't know what
happened to us.
i think i have an idea tho.
you don't want to talk to me
anymore
i don't blame you either
i would leave me to
if i had the choice.
its kinda hard not to
think of you and your
anger issues
when i stare at a grinder
filled to the brim
with weed.
'cause thats were
our friendship lies
in a now empty grinder
thats dusted with
your white wine lies.
r.i.p to our old memories
i bid you a good-bye
11:33 pm
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altercation of self-actualization《poetry
Poetryal•ter•ca•tion noun 1. a noisy argument or disagreement espically in public self-ac•tu•al•i•za•tion noun 1. the realization or fulfilment of ones talents and potentialities, espically conisdered as a drive or need present in everyone