playboy || hanbin fanfic

twenty ; lies

The next day, I didn't dare look Hanbin in the eye at all. I noticed his dark eye circles and his disheveled look, and I couldn't help but blame myself entirely for it.

I wanted to approach him and reassure him that I was never going to be that foolish again, but I didn't dare to. I have never said sorry to anyone first, I was just too prideful.

So when Hanbin's shoulder brushed past mine as we passed by each other in school without as much as a glance at each other, I swallowed the bile in my throat and walked on.

I immediately regreted it. I could have stopped him there and told him how I felt, begged him to forgive me if I had to. But of course, the stubborn and egotistic me had  to ruin that golden opportunity.

Sighing, I spotted Jennie up ahead sitting on a bench and was about to U-turn to avoid her when it suddenly occurred to me; if I could put aside my pride and apologise to Jennie now, wouldn't it become much easier for me to pluck up the courage to talk to Hanbin?

Yes, yes it would!

Breathing in deeply, I walked towards Jennie and sat down almost robotically beside her, clearing my throat to grab her attention. Surprised, she plucked out her earpiece and stared at me, her eyebrows raised.

"I'm sorry." I blurted out, heat rushing to my face immediately after. Great, that was not embarrassing at all, Bella.

"You're... Apologising? To me?" She turned to face me, and I quickly looked away. "Take it or leave it." I was about to walk off when she grabbed my hand and pulled me back down.

"I'll take it." She grinned. Then as if we were suddenly best friends again and nothing had ever happened, she slung an arm around me and smiled widely at me. "I missed you! I'm assuming Hanbin told you everything?"

Looking at her adorable chipmunkish cheeks, I couldn't help but return a smile. "Yeah, he did."

"Oooo, you know, you're so lucky to have him! He's so into you, he even rejected me when I was standing right infront of him in my lingerie. I can tell he really likes you." She winked, but it didn't take long before her bubble died down and she realized something was wrong.

"You two fought, didn't you?" As if reading my mind, she crossed her arms together and frowned, demanding me to spill everything to her. So I did. I told her about the 3 month bet thing with Bobby and Hanbin, about how I'd sort of cheated on Hanbin yesterday, and how today we were having a silence war.

Instead of reassuring me, she actually burst out laughing. Yes, she burst out laughing. Smacking her on the lap, I folded my arms and waited for her to finish laughing hysterically.

"Okay, sorry sorry. Anyways, this whole thing is so easy to solve. Just go apologise to Hanbin right now and beg him for forgiveness. It's not totally your fault anyways, since he was the one who agreed to it too."

"What about Bobby? We agreed that we would do this thing for 3 months, and it's been less than a week and I'm already becoming a hoe." I huffed my cheeks out, frustrated.

"You're not a hoe! Look, you haven't even slept with them yet. And Hanbin hasn't actually asked you to be his girlfriend, so you're technically not cheating on him. And Valentine's day is coming, isn't it? Just see which one of them spends more effort on you that day, and then make your decision!"

She grinned, nodding at me as if she was a genius enlightening me with her teachings. But she did make sense. All I had to do now was talk to Hanbin. Then we can talk the whole thing out, and solve this hugeass annoying problem.

"You know what? I'm going to find Hanbin right now and beg him for forgiveness." I reached out to hug Jennie tightly, so glad that we'd patched up. "Thanks babe, I'd still be so lost if it wasn't for you."

She waved me off, and I quickly went around the school asking people if they'd seen where Hanbin was. Eventually, several people said they saw him going up to the rooftop, so I climbed my way up, my heart thumping in excitement and anxiety.

He was going to forgive me, right? I was putting aside my pride and was actually willing to beg him, that would be enough to touch him, right?

The door to the rooftop swung open and I entered, squinting my eyes slightly as the wind blew harshly against them. "Hanbin? " I called, looking around for him.

There. He was sitting on the brick wall near the roof, his back facing me.

Feeling all nervous and jittery, I approached him slowly, trying to formulate words in my mind. But when I finally arrived behind him, my mouth opened and closed, with no words coming out.

Eventually, I managed to call his name, the cool wind blowing against me almost freezing my mouth closed. "Kim Hanbin."

He slowly turned around, and what I saw made me completely forget my initial intention of coming here. A cold hand gripped my heart and I stared, my eyes growing bigger as I remembered the promise that'd turned out to be a big, fat lie.

Maybe if I'd told him the reason why I was so triggered, then he wouldn't have continued snoking. But it didn't matter now. He'd lied to me, he'd disappointed me thoroughly.

"Why..." I said, my voice trembled along with the rest of my body, and I steadied myself, glaring up at him, hot tears watering in my eyes.

"Why are you smoking, Kim Hanbin?"

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A/N:

Yay another chapter up! Btw quick question, are the spacing between each paragraphs okay? Because they're so messy and inconsistent 😂😂😂

Do you guys prefer the spacing to be bigger or smaller? Or it's fine like this? Let me know please! ^-^

Anws, thank you again for reading, and I'll update tmr! ♥♥♥