jasey and i
stood in a small record shop
one day after relentlessly tedious session.
as she skimmed the endless racks
her fingers running through them
her feet tapping to a tune
from the rusty old speakers
and her lips puffing out smoke.
“when are you going to
stop smoking, jasey rae?”
i wrapped my arms behind her
kissing her cheek.
i nuzzled into the material of her sweater
for she rarely wore one
much less one so cozy.
she took another puff and
blew out a small ring of white
from her half-lit cigar.
she smiled at me then
threw her smoke by her feet
as her heels grounded the dying flame.
“now, i guess.”
she said even though she knew i knew
that she would light another in her car.
and her eyes lit up
her pastel coloured nails ran through the aisle
reaching for an album called nothing personal.
“i love this one the most.”
she said, clutching it to her chest.
“why?”
i would have thought she’d choose
put up or shut up.
“because, dear ashton.
it has the song stella.”
when that did not offer enough explanation
“i didn’t even know that the song
was about beer
even though i’ve heard it
a billion times before.”
her sweater paws covered her giggle.
i laughed because
“i didn’t know that until two seconds ago.”
“dear jasey rae
i’m glad you’re not conceited.
for a second i thought you’d choose-“
“put up or shut up, i know.”
she finished for me.
“but the song is quite sombre
and i don’t want that.
at least a song about beer
makes beer seem pleasant
and it makes me feel warm.
instead of telling people
‘i like that one song about
a quick one night stand that ends bad’
i can tell them
‘i like that one silly song all about beer’
instead.”
i took the masterpiece from her hands
and also put up or shut up
and paid for them at the cashier.
i loved buying things for my jasey
for she could not afford such things.
she calls them ‘sad casualties’ and
she could not have anything she wanted.
every good thing she has
is either donated or she’s had for years.
but she has a good heart
because she’s never, i swear
ever kept anything better for herself
she’s beautiful and yet even so, alone.
but she was a sister
to more than fifty homeless children.
the day we went back
to the old orphanage
the kids swarmed all around us.
you can just feel your heart bursting with warmth
the empathy you feel deep inside
for all these sorry children.
jasey was so beautiful
because she cared for every
single one
of them
with her heart and soul.
how could someone like this
take a life of another?
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insane. ➼irwin
Fanfiction➼we were both insane. especially on tuesdays. [lowercase intended] all ideas and writing are mine, 2014 mylittlepenguin